Still alive?
I am Still Alive. How are you?
So, last six months or so have been pretty fucking rough and shitty. Nothing horrific has happened to me personally, a fair few close friends have had a really rough time and I've had a nice pic 'n' mix selection of low grade shittiness imposing itself upon my existence.
Work has gone to fuck a bit but starting to get myself together now. Timing is a bit off but I am starting to head in an ok-ish direction. No longer feel constantly assailed by feelings of utter hopelessness (just down to about a third of the time now). Don't really want to go into too much detail as much of it is personal and I'm trying to move on in a positive manner.
Have a lot to deal with now, I hope I'm capable.
Shinytastic. My own web/multimedia business. The original plan was to launch april/may but things went wrong and I just couldn't get the time sorted. It's now top priority, I NEED to get it off the ground. Work/finance has become too uncertain, clients have been going out of business and cutting budgets, I need to step out on my own and this will be how I do that. I have a prospective client list and a fairly solid group of freelancers and suppliers to work with. It will work or I am made of fail. I went to the bank this week and got the accounts and stuff set up. As of next month I will be trading as Shinytastic, the marketing and full launch may take longer.
Line Out Records. Will not die. It may kill me trying to keep it going but it will not die. At the darker times over the last few months I have considered several options including just shutting it down entirely but it's not going to happen. Things will have to be quiet for a while while I get Shinytastic running properly and for reasons I shall explain below but it will still be a functioning label. I had a distressing few weeks where I couldn't bring myself to listen to any of the bands on the label for feeling I had failed them. This morning I listened to "We Fall Apart" and realised it will all be ok, I just needed to remember why I'm doing it.
Everything Starts. This is my personal next big thing. We had a false start with it earlier this year but now I know why it went wrong and how to fix it. More on this next year.
My Stuff. My ongoing desire to get into illustration is starting to move a little. Not as fast as I'd like but then I just don't have the time right now. I am keeping at it and actually improving to an extent I'm happy to do stuff for clients myself. Alas I've had to completely give up on my music over the last few months, time isn't there. I desperately want to get back to it but not sure I'm emotionally stable enough for it right now. I can illustrate when miserable I can only write music when happy (odd!).
Buying a house. The big one. I'm buying a house with Karen. We are starting to look at houses on monday. I suspect the mortgage is going to have a serious effect on things but I will find a way. I feel like I'm about to become a grown-up. I'm really not ready for that but I don't think I ever will be so now is as good a time as ever.
On top of all that I'm looking after a mate's business for a fortnight, meeting new clients and freelancers all week and trying to stay sane.
Thank you to everyone who has helped keep me sane over the last few months. It's been difficult but I think things are lifting. Special thanks to the bands on the label for being patient with me and writing the music that makes it worth the effort.
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So, last six months or so have been pretty fucking rough and shitty. Nothing horrific has happened to me personally, a fair few close friends have had a really rough time and I've had a nice pic 'n' mix selection of low grade shittiness imposing itself upon my existence.
Work has gone to fuck a bit but starting to get myself together now. Timing is a bit off but I am starting to head in an ok-ish direction. No longer feel constantly assailed by feelings of utter hopelessness (just down to about a third of the time now). Don't really want to go into too much detail as much of it is personal and I'm trying to move on in a positive manner.
Have a lot to deal with now, I hope I'm capable.
Shinytastic. My own web/multimedia business. The original plan was to launch april/may but things went wrong and I just couldn't get the time sorted. It's now top priority, I NEED to get it off the ground. Work/finance has become too uncertain, clients have been going out of business and cutting budgets, I need to step out on my own and this will be how I do that. I have a prospective client list and a fairly solid group of freelancers and suppliers to work with. It will work or I am made of fail. I went to the bank this week and got the accounts and stuff set up. As of next month I will be trading as Shinytastic, the marketing and full launch may take longer.
Line Out Records. Will not die. It may kill me trying to keep it going but it will not die. At the darker times over the last few months I have considered several options including just shutting it down entirely but it's not going to happen. Things will have to be quiet for a while while I get Shinytastic running properly and for reasons I shall explain below but it will still be a functioning label. I had a distressing few weeks where I couldn't bring myself to listen to any of the bands on the label for feeling I had failed them. This morning I listened to "We Fall Apart" and realised it will all be ok, I just needed to remember why I'm doing it.
Everything Starts. This is my personal next big thing. We had a false start with it earlier this year but now I know why it went wrong and how to fix it. More on this next year.
My Stuff. My ongoing desire to get into illustration is starting to move a little. Not as fast as I'd like but then I just don't have the time right now. I am keeping at it and actually improving to an extent I'm happy to do stuff for clients myself. Alas I've had to completely give up on my music over the last few months, time isn't there. I desperately want to get back to it but not sure I'm emotionally stable enough for it right now. I can illustrate when miserable I can only write music when happy (odd!).
Buying a house. The big one. I'm buying a house with Karen. We are starting to look at houses on monday. I suspect the mortgage is going to have a serious effect on things but I will find a way. I feel like I'm about to become a grown-up. I'm really not ready for that but I don't think I ever will be so now is as good a time as ever.
On top of all that I'm looking after a mate's business for a fortnight, meeting new clients and freelancers all week and trying to stay sane.
Thank you to everyone who has helped keep me sane over the last few months. It's been difficult but I think things are lifting. Special thanks to the bands on the label for being patient with me and writing the music that makes it worth the effort.
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