Bitter Exhaustion

[iwriteitoff]

I did it.
I did it anyway.
And here I am
Shaking, and unwell, and lonely,
But still okay
After the bitter exhaustion of it all.
It’s sick how okay I am.
And it all just keeps happening.
And it needs to.
I need to.
I can’t survive without this.
Don’t you see?
I need this to be okay.