I'm still not ready, but this needs to be done.
I was informed on Monday that goneplatinum had died.
I can't come across the words on my own, so I'll just paste the Facebook message her aunt had sent to me:
Hello again --
We've been engaged in very sad arrangements for the last few days. It's like time is standing still. We're all still numb - and so sad - but we have to muster the strength to make plans. And so today, we did. Here they are:
A gathering of family and friends sharing remembrances of Sara Smilanich's life will be held on Thursday, May 6th, from 5-8 pm at the Bradshaw Funeral Home, 4600 Greenhaven Drive, White Bear, MN 55127. An obituary will be posted on Wednesday in both the Minneapolis Star-Tribune and the St. Paul Pioneer Press. Condolences may be left at any of those newspaper sites or at www.bradshawfuneral.com. Thank you so much for keeping us in your thoughts now.
I went to the funeral home's website, and it says she died on April 30th (which, for those of you who are friends with her, will confuse you just as much as it did me because she'd just posted on April 29th).
At first (cause I was reading the message on my BlackBerry, and had to scroll to get to the second paragraph), I thought it was spam because I didn't recognize the name (and it sounds like one of those scams where they get you to "donate to a relief fund", and with the recent flooding in Nashville it seemed likely). Then I read the second paragraph, and my world stopped. I started shaking, and have been crying off and on for three days, which is why it's taken me this long to make this post.
That, and I have had a hard time trying to put into words how heartbreaking this is for me. When we met ( this post, for the record), I never expected our friendship to become what it was. I mean, how could I have known from that seven comment thread that she'd become one of my best friends? The last year and a half has been something just short of amazing. Throughout everything, we've been there for each other. Even when I was in a place where I hated everything.
She called me her soul sister, and now I know it was more than just talk. I'm empty. In our talkings, we'd always tell each other "I don't know what I'd do without you," and even now, I still don't.
♫ Never gone, never far. In my heart is where you are. Always close, everyday. Every step along the way. Even though for now we've got to say goodbye, I know you'll forever be in my life. ♫
Edit: I have a happier post coming, a life update (including talking about the de facto boyfriend-type person).
I can't come across the words on my own, so I'll just paste the Facebook message her aunt had sent to me:
Hello again --
We've been engaged in very sad arrangements for the last few days. It's like time is standing still. We're all still numb - and so sad - but we have to muster the strength to make plans. And so today, we did. Here they are:
A gathering of family and friends sharing remembrances of Sara Smilanich's life will be held on Thursday, May 6th, from 5-8 pm at the Bradshaw Funeral Home, 4600 Greenhaven Drive, White Bear, MN 55127. An obituary will be posted on Wednesday in both the Minneapolis Star-Tribune and the St. Paul Pioneer Press. Condolences may be left at any of those newspaper sites or at www.bradshawfuneral.com. Thank you so much for keeping us in your thoughts now.
I went to the funeral home's website, and it says she died on April 30th (which, for those of you who are friends with her, will confuse you just as much as it did me because she'd just posted on April 29th).
At first (cause I was reading the message on my BlackBerry, and had to scroll to get to the second paragraph), I thought it was spam because I didn't recognize the name (and it sounds like one of those scams where they get you to "donate to a relief fund", and with the recent flooding in Nashville it seemed likely). Then I read the second paragraph, and my world stopped. I started shaking, and have been crying off and on for three days, which is why it's taken me this long to make this post.
That, and I have had a hard time trying to put into words how heartbreaking this is for me. When we met ( this post, for the record), I never expected our friendship to become what it was. I mean, how could I have known from that seven comment thread that she'd become one of my best friends? The last year and a half has been something just short of amazing. Throughout everything, we've been there for each other. Even when I was in a place where I hated everything.
She called me her soul sister, and now I know it was more than just talk. I'm empty. In our talkings, we'd always tell each other "I don't know what I'd do without you," and even now, I still don't.
♫ Never gone, never far. In my heart is where you are. Always close, everyday. Every step along the way. Even though for now we've got to say goodbye, I know you'll forever be in my life. ♫
Edit: I have a happier post coming, a life update (including talking about the de facto boyfriend-type person).