you see, the night is all i have to make me feel
of course, only listening to the songs to remind. some sort of sadness. loneliness. it's easier to feel pain. easier to feel sorry for myself. another way to be unmotivated. another reason not to move on. got to keep the wounds fresh. the passenger seat empty again. hasn't it always been? it's my fault. burning bridges. my lack of trying to change anything in my life. that's ok, just another 12 hour work day to push all my thoughts aside. i don't want to think about them. they only leave me sad and angered. obviously i'm content to not care about ever finding someone. and if i did then what? another let down for sure. i'm good for that at least...
not so, not so. no more feeling gloomy. what i have are self-inflicted wounds. it's hard to be optimistic in such darkness. i have to keep in mind that darkness wouldn't exist if there wasn't, also, light. every bad stretch comes to an end. the seas may be rough in life. the waves may threaten to sink my ship. but even when sinking down and giving in would be easier, i've got to keep trying. keep fighting to right my ship....
i hope i do.
"hold me
you're here and then you're gone love
like a dream, like a sigh
tell me you're hearing every word now
like a song love, like a song"
not so, not so. no more feeling gloomy. what i have are self-inflicted wounds. it's hard to be optimistic in such darkness. i have to keep in mind that darkness wouldn't exist if there wasn't, also, light. every bad stretch comes to an end. the seas may be rough in life. the waves may threaten to sink my ship. but even when sinking down and giving in would be easier, i've got to keep trying. keep fighting to right my ship....
i hope i do.
"hold me
you're here and then you're gone love
like a dream, like a sigh
tell me you're hearing every word now
like a song love, like a song"