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My mom has to be so flat-out snide about every fucking thing I do. She even put a sarcastic "Um," into one of her sarcastic replies. So I told her I'd appreciate if she stopped talking so much shit about me. Those words, yeah, weirdness. I directed it to both my parents but I feel really bad about that because my dad really never does anything at all, he usually tries to help me, but I couldn't really say "mom I hate you but dad's cool", that's like having a favorite child. Gyah but whatever, I don't think this war will ever end anyways, I might as well just follow Colin's advice and not mind it. Even though that's hard cos it's messing up my brain. I wish I wasn't so impressionable, everything I see and hear affects how I think I should be. But I guess in this case I'm still not sure that she doesn't know best, yknow? Pleh.
On a better note, Czarine burned me some CDs!!! I'm really excited about the FLCL soundtrack... She also burned me the latest Sonata Arctica and managed to give me two copies instead of a copy of Hammerfall - Legacy of Kings. Which is not the greatest arrangement because I mean I don't really need two Sonata Arctica, great as they are, and I really wanted to listen to Hammerfall, but.....it's okay. ^_^. I love Czarine!!!! I spent the weekend with her and it was really great....we took purikura and got funny little 99 cent Hello Kitty-shaped Tamagotchis, hehe. The instructions were so funny....lol.
Koi no Mahou makes me happy as soon as I turn it on lol. So sweet....
I'm sorry but I'd really like to take a break from my life for a while. Be someone else, someone cuter, anything just I can't keep this up all year, this work and everything. I haven't studied at all for the Chem test and I won't, I know I won't, because I can do just as fucking well by guessing as I can by trying. I know her tests. They're so fucked up. I think I've just about totally given up on Chemistry in general. I just cannot retain ANY of it. Not my thing.
I wish I were more like Colin. He's so very placid about everything, sage. Mmmmmpleh.
My mom has to be so flat-out snide about every fucking thing I do. She even put a sarcastic "Um," into one of her sarcastic replies. So I told her I'd appreciate if she stopped talking so much shit about me. Those words, yeah, weirdness. I directed it to both my parents but I feel really bad about that because my dad really never does anything at all, he usually tries to help me, but I couldn't really say "mom I hate you but dad's cool", that's like having a favorite child. Gyah but whatever, I don't think this war will ever end anyways, I might as well just follow Colin's advice and not mind it. Even though that's hard cos it's messing up my brain. I wish I wasn't so impressionable, everything I see and hear affects how I think I should be. But I guess in this case I'm still not sure that she doesn't know best, yknow? Pleh.
On a better note, Czarine burned me some CDs!!! I'm really excited about the FLCL soundtrack... She also burned me the latest Sonata Arctica and managed to give me two copies instead of a copy of Hammerfall - Legacy of Kings. Which is not the greatest arrangement because I mean I don't really need two Sonata Arctica, great as they are, and I really wanted to listen to Hammerfall, but.....it's okay. ^_^. I love Czarine!!!! I spent the weekend with her and it was really great....we took purikura and got funny little 99 cent Hello Kitty-shaped Tamagotchis, hehe. The instructions were so funny....lol.
Koi no Mahou makes me happy as soon as I turn it on lol. So sweet....
I'm sorry but I'd really like to take a break from my life for a while. Be someone else, someone cuter, anything just I can't keep this up all year, this work and everything. I haven't studied at all for the Chem test and I won't, I know I won't, because I can do just as fucking well by guessing as I can by trying. I know her tests. They're so fucked up. I think I've just about totally given up on Chemistry in general. I just cannot retain ANY of it. Not my thing.
I wish I were more like Colin. He's so very placid about everything, sage. Mmmmmpleh.