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So i find myself being rather emotional lately. Maybe it is because I feel like my ever move is being watched
and judged! I feel like every step takes a bit of effort. School is beginning to make me really nervous!!
I just don't want another anxiety attack. I've concluded that I've had an anxiety attack almost every first
week of school, since 4th grade!! Isn't that scary and something for myself to look forward to? Keep me in
your prayers, pretty please!!
"God is my strength!"..."God is my strenth"..."God is my strength"
So I'm rather lonely right now!! I'm not trying to have a pity party for myself, but I'm praying that the
Lord will give me some patience. He knows how much i need it right now. And not just with relationships,
I'm talking about everything. Education, Job, Moving, Car... you name it!! Everyone just wants to know
all the answers and I'm really struggling with that. I'm also struggling with trust. Who can I trust
anymore?? It seems like every time, every time I let someone in then all they do is rip at my heart!!
I'm not sure how much more of it can be torn right now. I pray that God will fill all those soars. I just
need to be healed!! I need forgiveness too!! I have disappointed myself. I've been pretty mean lately
when it hasn't been necessary. I'm truly sorry!!
"May you Oh Lord guide my every direction!" I'm really trying here even though it seems I'm lost!!
and judged! I feel like every step takes a bit of effort. School is beginning to make me really nervous!!
I just don't want another anxiety attack. I've concluded that I've had an anxiety attack almost every first
week of school, since 4th grade!! Isn't that scary and something for myself to look forward to? Keep me in
your prayers, pretty please!!
"God is my strength!"..."God is my strenth"..."God is my strength"
So I'm rather lonely right now!! I'm not trying to have a pity party for myself, but I'm praying that the
Lord will give me some patience. He knows how much i need it right now. And not just with relationships,
I'm talking about everything. Education, Job, Moving, Car... you name it!! Everyone just wants to know
all the answers and I'm really struggling with that. I'm also struggling with trust. Who can I trust
anymore?? It seems like every time, every time I let someone in then all they do is rip at my heart!!
I'm not sure how much more of it can be torn right now. I pray that God will fill all those soars. I just
need to be healed!! I need forgiveness too!! I have disappointed myself. I've been pretty mean lately
when it hasn't been necessary. I'm truly sorry!!
"May you Oh Lord guide my every direction!" I'm really trying here even though it seems I'm lost!!