so stupid of me...
i am the stupidest person alive.... uhg! last night i went into my bathroom and turned on Avril L. and sat on the bathroom floor crying and crying..1/2 of it i dont even know why. so then i was like i cant handle this i have to hurt myself physically so i will stop crying (DIDNT WORK.) so i turn on my frikkin straightener and burn my arms like in little lines and now its gonna be grosss scars and i gotta wear jackets/longsleeves like everyywhere....cuz its rly. obvious. i wish i had never done it-it was soo stupid. Its just that lately i have been so down that its just like, the last resort. I dunno--i just let my emotions get the best of me. I think mostly it was just because i was thinking about sara and like, how i feel like now im getting sorta like, depressed because of this..but i cant let that happen. If she comes over Saturday i dunno how the heck i am gonna hide my burn thingies bcuz if i wear long sleeves--i'll burn up cuz we get soo hyper. WHY DID I DO THAT!!?? im so stupid..... okay so ya i got some pix from CVS developed last night, they're cute! They're some of me and sara, one of me and donna, and some of me and rae..they're cute. so yeah i am reallyyy tired right now..bout to pass out. mmmkay so i am gonna go lay down for a few minutes before school xoxo
-LINDZ
-LINDZ