Ah, the life of a college student (me)
SO yeah.
I'm back at BC, mixed feelings about that, but I'm sure that's no surprise.
My roomate's at a meeting so I'm pretty bored..
This morning I woke up with the weirdest feeling, and I can't quite put my finger on what it was... I think it was the feeling I had at the beginning of the year. Like when I felt out of place, and like I didn't belong here.. It's weird though, because I am comfortable here, and despite some times, I pretty much like it. But I'd so much rather be at home. I have this weird addiction to my house, like I'm just so much happier when I'm there. It's weird, like lounging around in my house feels so much better then sitting in my dorm room.
This vacation felt really short to me. I had so many plans with things I wanted to do, and I feel like I got nothing accomplished. it was like I went back to my old life, minus working. I don't know. I also feel like I took my parents for granted while I was at home. I really miss them when I'm here, but I just can't seem to make time for them when I'm home. I saw my dad about three times while I was at home. It makes me like sick thinking about, cause I feel like an idiot. And my mom was like in the house with me, but I maybe hung out with her like 5 times, if that. And Sunday I was like freaking out cause all I wanted to do was go home and like sit in the house with her, but it just wasn't happening. And then she worked Monday, and I went back to school at night. I don't know, I just miss things being the old way, like when my parents were together. I really don't know what's wrong with me. Sunday night I sat at my computer listening to "I'm Already There" and "Skin" like crying my eyes out, and there was just so much I was crying about. It was so weird. And those two songs pretty much make cry on their own.
This weekend should be a blast. I kid. Jeff (and maybe Dan) are coming here Friday night, so that's good. But I think my roomates going on a retreat, so that leaves me semi plan-less. That's so sad, like I should make plans with these other girls I know, but I'm so bad at doing that. I'm so "shy" and I hate like awkward situations, so I avoid them at all cost. There seriously must be something wrong with me, why am I not happy here? Everyone is like happy here, with all their friends, and all I can think of is when I'll be home again.
I really can't say how excited I am for summer.
I'm back at BC, mixed feelings about that, but I'm sure that's no surprise.
My roomate's at a meeting so I'm pretty bored..
This morning I woke up with the weirdest feeling, and I can't quite put my finger on what it was... I think it was the feeling I had at the beginning of the year. Like when I felt out of place, and like I didn't belong here.. It's weird though, because I am comfortable here, and despite some times, I pretty much like it. But I'd so much rather be at home. I have this weird addiction to my house, like I'm just so much happier when I'm there. It's weird, like lounging around in my house feels so much better then sitting in my dorm room.
This vacation felt really short to me. I had so many plans with things I wanted to do, and I feel like I got nothing accomplished. it was like I went back to my old life, minus working. I don't know. I also feel like I took my parents for granted while I was at home. I really miss them when I'm here, but I just can't seem to make time for them when I'm home. I saw my dad about three times while I was at home. It makes me like sick thinking about, cause I feel like an idiot. And my mom was like in the house with me, but I maybe hung out with her like 5 times, if that. And Sunday I was like freaking out cause all I wanted to do was go home and like sit in the house with her, but it just wasn't happening. And then she worked Monday, and I went back to school at night. I don't know, I just miss things being the old way, like when my parents were together. I really don't know what's wrong with me. Sunday night I sat at my computer listening to "I'm Already There" and "Skin" like crying my eyes out, and there was just so much I was crying about. It was so weird. And those two songs pretty much make cry on their own.
This weekend should be a blast. I kid. Jeff (and maybe Dan) are coming here Friday night, so that's good. But I think my roomates going on a retreat, so that leaves me semi plan-less. That's so sad, like I should make plans with these other girls I know, but I'm so bad at doing that. I'm so "shy" and I hate like awkward situations, so I avoid them at all cost. There seriously must be something wrong with me, why am I not happy here? Everyone is like happy here, with all their friends, and all I can think of is when I'll be home again.
I really can't say how excited I am for summer.