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[lindyhopgirl]

Now I've truly lost everything. I've lost my dad, my mom, my two best friends, and the one thing that kept me going isn't worth it anymore. Everything that had any value to me is gone.  Why should I swing dance when I don't have anyone there anymore? I've lost Kristen, Jason, Daniel, and now I've lost Laura. Chris is gone because of his foot. I've lost everyone. More over I've been replaced. I remember this time last year being friends with all of them. I loved life, nothing brought me down. The one person who did nothing wrong tonight feels guilty for taking me there. He shouldn't. The girl who took others sides without hearing mine even though I was the one that got hurt should. By the way his gift is with Chris. Hope Matt likes it, don't expect any favors from me ever again though. Noone has the right to judge me and they sure as hell don't have a right to lecture me. I'm tired of it. I can't do anything right, but everyone else can do no wrong. I give up. I really do. Oh and I'm losing him. Slowly but surely, Ethan's going. He finds time in other things and so do I, and neither one of us care enough to fix it. By my birthday it'll be over, ruined, and so will I. By this time next year, you probably won't see me ever.
For those of you who assumed, I moved because I wasn't going to sit with a group made up of people who didn't want me there, when I had people a few rows up. It had nothing to do with Lacy, but of course, I'm always an evil, wrong, person "everyone should be pissed at" and lord help me if anyone does anything mean to her. I may not like her, but I don't hate her, unlike how some people feel about me. Bet you didn't care to hear that side of the story did you?