it sucks knowing everything
It's nice to be on the inside, to know what's going on. But sometimes it's hard knowing things, and being able to read between the lines. Not that I want people to stop telling me things, or that I want to not know my friends so well that I can read between the lines, because that's not true at all. I just...wish that things were different. There are things that almost no one knows, and I hide them so well. But they are eating me up inside. How do I still manage to smile, when the very act of it tears my heart to shreds. It would be nice to be real, but I cant with this, unless I want to lose a very good friend. So I'll continue to smile. And be there for you. Go ahead, tell me. Despite it all, I. Want. To. Know.