The Letter
I know it's been a while but I finally got the next chapter done woohoo! And I have to show ssoooooo much love to my best friend and beta, Kelli. breath-of-twilight. I would never have got it done without her help. Go check out her own stories over on ff.net at the link below
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Chapter 17, Stephanie Meyer Owns it all apart from the plot, that's mine, even though I've lost my own hehe.
ADULT CONTENT!!
Bella's POV
Blissfully sore.
That's how I felt.
Like I'd been hit in the lady parts with a baseball bat but couldn't find it in me to care. I squirmed a little in discomfort and inadvertently rubbed against Edward, the small movement made his penis stir and press into my leg.
"Mmm." His eyes were closed but I knew he was awake.
The huge 'shit eating' grin sat on his face was the biggest give away that he had roused-and not just from his slumber.
I twisted in his arms while he pulled me impossibly closer and buried his face in my hair.
"Morning." I whispered nervously before biting my lip.
"Morning," he repeated, "How are you feeling?" he asked, shifting his head so he could look at me fully.
"Um...okay...great." I couldn't stop the timid giggle that escaped me. "A little sore though." My cheeks flushed with color at that small bit of information.
"Sorry." He dropped his gaze from mine in remorse.
"Don't be...I'm not." I stated and snuggled into his chest more. "It was so worth it."
The worry in his features melted away instantly and was replaced with pride. He rolled onto his back and pulled me with him so my head rested on his shoulder and his soft lips kissed the top of my head sweetly.
"Do you want to know what isn’t weird?" He asked, craning his neck to look at me while I turned as best I could to see his face.
"What…isn’t weird?" I asked curiously.
"None of this..." He gestured to our embrace and nakedness. "None of this is weird...at all."
I smiled. I knew exactly what he meant. It was as if this was how we were always meant to be, and even though our first time had been clumsy and awkward, it had still been perfect. There had been no doubt or hesitation from either one of us; just nerves and perfect bliss.
I cuddled deeper into his side-a small smile playing on my lips as his arm pulled me tighter to him. This feeling, this...thing between us felt so right, so perfect...so natural, I briefly wondered how we had been so oblivious to it for so long. Now that it was out there, now that we had confessed our feelings, I could look back upon our years together and see just how blatantly obvious it all actually was.
I lay in Edward's arms listening to the gentle thrum of his heart, the soothing beat was trying to lull me back to sleep but I was having none of that.
"Bella, can I ask you something?" He turned on his side, not wanting to question the top of my head.
"You can ask me anything?" I grinned before kissing his throat, I was aiming for his lips but he was just out of reach.
"Last night...was amazing." He blushed.
"That wasn't a question." I chuckled as his face continued to turn scarlet.
"Ha. Ha." He rolled his eyes. "You didn't...I mean...It wasn't as a reaction to Rose was it?"
What?
"No!" My reply came out sounding a little sharper than I intended.
"Good...It's just...I didn't want this." He stroked my cheek with the back of his fingers. "To be because you maybe thought..."
"Maybe I thought what?"
"If Rose implied or said something to make you think that this was all I was interested in...Then she was wrong."
"Edward, last night happened because I wanted it to...I thought you did too..." I started but he interrupted again.
"No...I did! It's just well...I didn't want you to feel like you had to sleep with me to keep me interested and I know that that's the kind of thing Rose would stoop to suggesting. I didn't want it to be something that happened as a direct result of her." Animosity rolled off him in waves as he thought about her; I could see it in his eyes and feel it when he tensed up.
I didn't want him thinking about Rosalie so I tried my best to soothe him.
"Edward, it happened because I wanted you." My words made him grin like a Cheshire cat.
"Yeah?" He asked; his voice sounding childlike and awestruck.
I pulled myself up beside him and propped the side of my face on my hand.
"Yeah!" I nodded before bringing our lips together chastely.
Suddenly his hand was in my hair and pulling me to him more.
I squeaked and tried to pull back as his mouth devoured me, his tongue trying to slip in to meet my own. I wiggled and squirmed out of his hold, pulling back for much needed air. He pushed himself up with his arms, using them to support his weight, and looked at me hungrily.
"What?" He asked while giving me his award winning crooked grin.
"Urgh, I can't kiss you yet." I grimaced.
"Why?" His cocky bravado slipped a little as his brow creased in confusion.
I gave him a pointed look while waving a finger in front of my mouth.
He shook his head at me to let me know he didn't have a clue what my problem was.
"I need to go brush my teeth!" I huffed that he didn't understand my dilemma.
"Oh right...Yeah I don't care about that." He pulled my arm, causing me to fall into him again and me to squeak once more.
My hands shot out to the bed to stop me from landing on him fully but my attempts to stifle his kisses were fruitless, so I stopped trying and kissed him back. Within seconds he had me panting and hot. The discomforting feeling between my legs had turned into a desperate ache to have him, regardless of if it would hurt or not. Edward's hands were framing my face.
"Edward." I breathed when he finally let me up for air, turning his attention instead to my throat.
"Mmmhmm." He mumbled into my skin.
My eyes started rolling everywhere as he dropped a hand from my cheeks and used it instead to palm my breast.
"Never mind." I giggled breathlessly as his finger tips pinched the peak of my nipples.
He sat up fully and pulled me into his lap. His erection protruded upwards between us, twitching and leaking pre-cum. I allowed my fingers to travel down between us and swipe at the clear liquid at his tip...I was curious. His eyes drew darker and hooded; his nostrils flared as he watched me place the tips of my fingers into my mouth.
"Mmm." I licked my lips.
"Fuck." He groaned; his eyes locked on my mouth.
"Yes please." I smiled and wiggled in his lap until I was lined up.
"Unngh Bella." He stilled my hips with his hands. "I thought you were sore." He stated while raising an eyebrow at me.
"It's not so bad." I continued trying to squirm so I could achieve some friction.
"I don't want to hurt you love or make you any more uncomfortable than you already are." He was trying to be a gentleman but I could see his internal battle being lost to his desire; his dick twitched as if to confirm my thoughts.
"Edward..." I broke off in a strangled cry as I pushed down onto him.
He didn't get far into me before he groaned and lifted me off.
I was just about to let the rejection overtake me when his words stopped it in his tracks.
"Bella, aren't we forgetting something...?" He reminded me while trying to restrain his own need.
I looked at him like he was crazy.
"You, me, a bed, naked...yep we're covered...Oh God, we're not covered!"
Shit.
"Do you have another one?" God, please say you do.
"I only had that one and some things are just not meant to be recycled." He scrunched his face up at his own remark.
I couldn't help the single chuckle that escaped me. If I didn't laugh I might have cried. I was poised and sooooo ready to feel him inside me again but had been cock blocked by lack of protection. I could feel my face fall a little as Edward's head pressed to my shoulder.
I was going to have to sort that shit out and get the pill as soon as possible.
Sudden inspiration hit me.
I jumped out of his lap and ran to the door. After opening it slightly, I peeked out and listened for signs that would indicate me being caught in a very embarrassing situation. The house was dead, all but the sound of Edward's whispered questions about what exactly I was doing. I shushed him and told him I'd be right back. Running down the hall of my family home while naked wasn't exactly what I wanted to be doing right now but needs must. I knocked quietly on the door to the main bathroom...nothing. The hinges creaked as I pushed it open and I blanched away from the sound. Luckily no one stirred.
"Bella!" Edward's head appeared from behind my door and he seemed to question my sanity. I silently giggled and shushed him again, holding my finger to my lips.
A look of realization dawned on his face causing it to light up like a sunrise. I dashed in and over to the vanity, I rummaged for the tissue box and dove into it in search of my treasure. Once my hand hit foil, I balled it up. "Thank you Oliver." I almost sang while grabbing anything I could before turning on my heel. I'd just shut the bathroom door behind me when...
"Hey Oliver...Could you grab my coat before you come down please?" Katie's sweet voice called up the stairs.
"Shit!" Both Edward and I mouthed as he beckoned me to hurry up.
I know I wanted to thank my brother but not while I was stood in nothing but scarlet mask. I bolted for my room and pushed Edward back into it, shutting my door just as we heard Oliver close his own door and acknowledge his girlfriend's request with a 'Got it'. I listened to his fading steps before letting go of the breath I'd been holding. Edward's arms wrapped around me as we both exploded into fits of laughter. In that moment it was like we were kids again and sneaking out to my tree house back in Arizona, rushing so we wouldn't get caught out late by my mom...except we wouldn't have been naked back then.
"Well?" He questioned when we finally fell silent.
"Jackpot Baby." I grinned and offered him the handful of condoms I'd acquired. "Now, where were we?" I reached out for his hand and pulled him back towards the bed. His eyes wandered up and down my frame as I walked backwards, his tongue slipping out to lick his lips.
"I believe you were sat in my lap." He answered playfully.
"Oh that's right!" I overstated.
He wasted no time in spinning us around and pulling me back onto him. I watched him fumble with the packet and slip the condom into place before guiding himself to me. I wiggled and moved with him until I could feel his tip press into the right spot.
"There." I confirmed while his eyes rested on my face.
"Okay." He bit his lip and shut his eyes when we combined our efforts to bring our bodies together.
"Oooh, mmmm." I moaned as I felt him inching into me.
I soon forgot about any discomfort I'd been feeling as he started to rock his hips from below me. The feel of him inside of me was unbelievable. When I finally got over the initial thrust I began moving my hips in little circles, grinding down and around on him as he moved along with me.
"Fuck." He whispered as I moaned and threw my head back.
We seemed to fit together better and everything felt so much more intense than before.
"Oh God, Edward." I cried out while my hands tried to find purchase on his chest.
My action served only to push him backwards onto my bed and as he fell the angle between us shifted.
"Shit," I groand out and gasped for air.
"Unnnghhhh Bella." His hands shot out to grab my hips and he started to guide my movements, like something primal in him had clicked into place.
He pushed and pulled me down on him, creating the most amazing stirrings in my lower stomach. Within minutes I was a heavy breathing mess, thrashing and shaking above him while he jerked and shuddered below me.
We must have spent hours hauled up in bed with him holding me. I didn't ever want to move but I knew we would soon have to.
Alice had asked us yesterday if we all wanted to meet up over at her place today and hang out. The plan was for the guys to try and kick each other's asses on some stupid, mind numbing game while Alice and I talked about general crap. What she really meant was that we would hang out in her family room so she could ogle Jasper. I wasn't complaining, I could spend hours just watching Edward, but after the last eighteen hours, I could think of better things to be doing with him other than drooling over him while he killed some brain cells.
Edward's POV
I didn't expect a repeat performance of the night before anytime so soon and had been a little shocked at Bella's eagerness; not that I was complaining. I could stay buried inside of her for the rest of my natural life and never grow tired of the feelings she sent through me, but time continued to slip by and we had agreed to go over to my cousin's.
I couldn't believe that my two weeks here were already half way over and I remembered all too well how fast time moved when you wanted nothing more than for it to stop. It had slipped away from us all too quickly just before she moved out here.
I had decided something though. There was no way I could go so long without being able to see her in the flesh again. MSN was great, but I would die if I had to go months without being able to touch her; to kiss her. It would kill me.
I'd promised her that I would visit as often as I could but I would still be limited to maybe once or twice a month, and I knew once we went off to college that that would become even more infrequent. Unless...
"You ready to go?" I asked Bella as she walked down the stairs in a pair of skinnies, a pearl colored sweater and her usual Chucks.
"Yeah I just need to grab my keys." She shuffled past me and into the kitchen to lift them from their hook. "Okay, let's go."
I grabbed her hand and dragged her out the door. I was on a mission.
When we got to my aunt's house I made a bee line for Jasper, grabbing his arm and pulling him out of ear shot. This shit could go completely wrong and I didn't want to get him into trouble.
"Dude, what the fuck?" He griped at me.
"Stop fucking saying that, you're starting to sound like Emmett man." I chuckled. "Listen I need your help with something."
Jasper cocked his brow at me, watching me wearily. It was very seldom I ever asked for anything, so he immediately must have known this would be good.
"Alright, I'm listening." He said, his eyes darkening and filling with curiosity.
"This stays between us, got it?" Jasper nodded.
"I need you to switch my acceptance from Harvard to Dartmouth." I gushed out; glancing warily behind him, making sure no one could overhear us.
"Dude, I thought you got accepted to Dartmouth?" Jasper said, looking at me with a rather flustered expression.
"Yes, I did, but I turned it down. I....I didn't think Bella wanted me there....I was...wrong and I need to fix that now. Can you help me?"
My heart filled with hope at his thoughtful expression, Jasper could do this, I know he could. The question was, would he?
Jasper sighed, an expression somewhere between excitement and trepidation warring on his face. "I'll see what I can do. Dorms are likely filling up if not already filled up, but, since I am going there too, I could always slip you in my room with me."
What?
"I didn't know you were going to Dartmouth too? How have we let it get to this?”
"I ummm....I just have to be near her. I can't explain it, hell I don't even understand it myself. I just do." Jasper shrugged. “I got in through the back door too.”
He didn’t have to tell me who he was referring to, I knew and he knew I knew. "I know exactly what you mean." I chuckled, thinking of Bella and knowing I felt the very same way about her.
"Okay, let me see what I can do."
"Thanks man, I owe you one."
I left Jasper brooding in the hall and wandered off to find Bella.
~~oo~~
Jasper called me later on that evening, pulling me from a deep sleep at three o'clock in the damn morning.
"Hey Jazz what's up? Why are you calling me at this ungodly hour? Everything okay?" I whispered in a hushed tone, carefully slipping out from behind Bella and slinking out of the room.
"Yeah, everything's fine dude, better than fine. I did it, I got it all worked out, you're in."
My insides sang, I wanted to jump about in the hallway, sing from the rooftops, do a fucking jig…anything to express the excitement and utter joy I was currently feeling. I was going to go to Dartmouth; I could be within kissing distance of Bella after all. I couldn't be any happier than I was in that very moment.
"That's fucking awesome. So I'm rooming with you then and Alice is rooming with Bella? Are we in the same dorms?"
I heard a soft sigh come from the room and quickly peaked in through the crack of the door, hoping I hadn't woken Bella, luckily she was still fast asleep, murmuring as she normally did. I smiled. She was too damn cute for her own good.
"Yeah… something like that." Jasper replied vaguely.
"What do you mean something like that?" I asked cautiously, knowing this couldn't be good.
"Edward, what are you doing out here in the hall?" Bella's soft, confused voice startled me so bad I clicked the phone shut and slipped it into my pajama bottoms pocket before turning to look at her, smiling that crooked smile I knew dazzled her so, hoping to weasel myself out of this one the by using my powers of persuasion.
"Love, what are you doing out of bed? I was just going to get a glass of water. Come on, let's get that cute butt of yours back in that bed." I put my arm around her and guided her back into her room. Pulling her tightly to me, I kissed the top of her head and pretended to go to sleep. Listening to her soft sighs and heavy breaths as she immediately fell back into a deep slumber.