and its been awhilee
So yeah i cant even think about the last time that i updated my fricked livejournal.. mayb i will start doing it again for old times sake..
Well a recap is that i have had a chuge life changing experience.. ever since my accident i think my entire out look on life has changed.. i feel like i am more responsible and that i actually live a normal life now.. i know that is weird considering i couldnt walk or anything.. but im glad that i got into my accident because it made me realize how much people do care.. and who my true friends are..
So today i had my last final and i think i did alright.. then i went home and glenna came over.. we sat down and watched tv for a little bit.. and then we feel asleep for like 3 hours.. and she woke up and left and i went and showered and went out with filomena... then kristin and eddie picked me up and we went to my moms house.. and took a shit load of pictures.. it was wicked funny and i got a few new pics on my myspace.. and now i am up late like always.. and i thought it would be cool to write on this thing.. its so weird because when i think of livejournal.. i think of like sophomore year.. i dont know im crazy.. but i just have so many thoughts on my mind right now i wouldnt even know were to start.. its jus that sometimes i feel like im not good enough for anything.. and this whole college thing is stressing me out to the max.. i dont even know where i want to go anymore and im scared that i am going to make the wrong desicion.. i feel inadequate in almost every perspective in life.. from my school work to my looks to my feelings.. i cant even explain.. i sound like a rambling psycho actually now that i think of it.. i wish that i could turn back time to my junior year and redo everything.. i think that life would be so much easier.. or if i could jus fast forward my life four years.. i want to see where i am and if i am still alone because apparently im not good enough for men.. whatever man fuck them i dont need them at all...
PSHHH i feel a little bit better and mayb ill update soon with some good news.. lol
Well a recap is that i have had a chuge life changing experience.. ever since my accident i think my entire out look on life has changed.. i feel like i am more responsible and that i actually live a normal life now.. i know that is weird considering i couldnt walk or anything.. but im glad that i got into my accident because it made me realize how much people do care.. and who my true friends are..
So today i had my last final and i think i did alright.. then i went home and glenna came over.. we sat down and watched tv for a little bit.. and then we feel asleep for like 3 hours.. and she woke up and left and i went and showered and went out with filomena... then kristin and eddie picked me up and we went to my moms house.. and took a shit load of pictures.. it was wicked funny and i got a few new pics on my myspace.. and now i am up late like always.. and i thought it would be cool to write on this thing.. its so weird because when i think of livejournal.. i think of like sophomore year.. i dont know im crazy.. but i just have so many thoughts on my mind right now i wouldnt even know were to start.. its jus that sometimes i feel like im not good enough for anything.. and this whole college thing is stressing me out to the max.. i dont even know where i want to go anymore and im scared that i am going to make the wrong desicion.. i feel inadequate in almost every perspective in life.. from my school work to my looks to my feelings.. i cant even explain.. i sound like a rambling psycho actually now that i think of it.. i wish that i could turn back time to my junior year and redo everything.. i think that life would be so much easier.. or if i could jus fast forward my life four years.. i want to see where i am and if i am still alone because apparently im not good enough for men.. whatever man fuck them i dont need them at all...
PSHHH i feel a little bit better and mayb ill update soon with some good news.. lol