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i never post here. i just don't really have the time. i come read my friends' pages occasionally, but i don't have the energy to actually write anything. hell, i can't even keep a paper and pencil journal when i keep it under my pillow.
it's too bad though, because i feel like there are so many memories, good and bad, that are missing or hazy. i wish i had written some of those things down so that i could remember them for always. but then...there are some things i'll be glad if i ever forget. funny how the mind works...losing the good things and holding on with a death grip to the bad things.
i am really very content right now, in life. i am running for president of my sorority and i actually think that i'll win. i am doing really well in school, and i love my classes, even though i am working my ass off and i drop into bed exhausted every single night. most importantly, i've been with a wonderful man for eight months and he makes me happy. he brings me peace. he makes everything okay. i want to spend the rest of my life with him. not even a year ago, i was convinced that i would never EVER fall in love. i didn't think i was capable. i didn't think i wanted to. i didn't think i was good enough to be loved.
he makes me feel beautiful.
it's too bad though, because i feel like there are so many memories, good and bad, that are missing or hazy. i wish i had written some of those things down so that i could remember them for always. but then...there are some things i'll be glad if i ever forget. funny how the mind works...losing the good things and holding on with a death grip to the bad things.
i am really very content right now, in life. i am running for president of my sorority and i actually think that i'll win. i am doing really well in school, and i love my classes, even though i am working my ass off and i drop into bed exhausted every single night. most importantly, i've been with a wonderful man for eight months and he makes me happy. he brings me peace. he makes everything okay. i want to spend the rest of my life with him. not even a year ago, i was convinced that i would never EVER fall in love. i didn't think i was capable. i didn't think i wanted to. i didn't think i was good enough to be loved.
he makes me feel beautiful.