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I'm on my lunch.. and I was playing around with the new hotmail thing and I searched for all the e-mails from my dad.
WORST IDEA EVER. We fought a few years ago and here are some of the highlights of things he's said:
- Anyway maybe someday you will talk to me, If I have one wish for my birthday it is to hear from you.
- No one in my life has hurt me as much as you have.
- I don’t blame you for being mad. I just hate the thought of losing you.
- I have lived a life dealing with my Fathers death.. But to you I am already dead.
- I hate not seeing you. I hate even worse you avoiding me. But if that's what's best for you I will live with it for a little longer (I am dying you know). I hope that one day you will find it in your heart to forgive me.
- I will not bother you anymore and I will not try to buy my way into your life.
- I am afraid that if we cannot connect in what little time is left , then maybe we will never be able to again. I have made my apologies and have said I am sorry. I don’t know what else to do. I don’t want to loose you ! Tell me what you want . I love you.
SOOO yeah. I think I just cried like 8 times per e-mail I sifted through..
I am the worst daughter that ever exsisted.
WORST IDEA EVER. We fought a few years ago and here are some of the highlights of things he's said:
- Anyway maybe someday you will talk to me, If I have one wish for my birthday it is to hear from you.
- No one in my life has hurt me as much as you have.
- I don’t blame you for being mad. I just hate the thought of losing you.
- I have lived a life dealing with my Fathers death.. But to you I am already dead.
- I hate not seeing you. I hate even worse you avoiding me. But if that's what's best for you I will live with it for a little longer (I am dying you know). I hope that one day you will find it in your heart to forgive me.
- I will not bother you anymore and I will not try to buy my way into your life.
- I am afraid that if we cannot connect in what little time is left , then maybe we will never be able to again. I have made my apologies and have said I am sorry. I don’t know what else to do. I don’t want to loose you ! Tell me what you want . I love you.
SOOO yeah. I think I just cried like 8 times per e-mail I sifted through..
I am the worst daughter that ever exsisted.