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Willow and then Lilah Torture.
Willow:Last night was just amazing. I slept through the night in his arms then woke up and took a nice hot shower. I was going to save his life if it killed me. When I was dressed and ready I wrote him a small note, something to help him make sense of my decision.
Lindsey, I know you will be angry, but I can't stand to be the cause of your death, I have to do what I can to save you. Please forgive me, and thank you for the most amazing night in a very, very long time. ~Willow~
I placed the note on the pillow beside him then wrote another to Angel.
Angel, I know you defiantly won't approve of what I am doing, but I have to do this to save someone who I believe to be a good man now. I know in the past he has made life hell for all of you, but he is not that man anymore. Please forgive him for this even though it isn't his fault he did try to talk me out of it. I love you all ~Willow~
I laid that next to Lindsey's note asking him to take it to Angel for me and I left leaving Lindsey with only a soft kiss and headed to the firm.
I could only hope he went to Angel, but either way this is what I had to do. About half way there I chickened out though, I needed to save Lindsey but this wasn't the way. I just need to go find Angel
Lilah: "What the hell do you mean he didn't bring her in?" I yell as some little peeon tells me Lindsey hasn't brought the witch in yet. "Get him on the line, get someone after her, I want her here NOW!"
Lindsey:I looked at my phone...shit...the firm. "Hello?" I said into it. Prepared for the worst.
Lilah: "Lindsey, you little puddle of dog piss, why haven't you brought her in? I assumed what you were doing with her was to get her here. What the HELL is going on?" I yell as soon as he answers.
Lindsey: I held the phone away from my ear. "I can't do it..." I said. I was willing to face the consequences though.
Lilah: I smile as I see one of my minions drag the small redhead in. "I'll deal with you later, I've got what I want," I say coldly, hanging up on him.
Willow:I let out a yell as she pulled me in. Why was I here, how did I get here?
Lilah: "Willow, please, have a seat," I say civilly, sitting behind my desk. "I'm glad you were on your way to us."
Willow: "I wasn't. I was going to Angel so he could kill you" I say as I am thrown into the chair. "What do you think you have to gain by this? I could kill you with one thought."
Lilah: I stand and walk in front of her, putting my foot on the chair she's sitting in. "You could, but you and I both know you won't." I say simply. "Now, our offer is very simple really. Should I assume Lindsey was too busy taking advantage of you to really explain everything?"
Willow: "He didn't take advantage of me."
Lilah: I laugh a little. "Uh huh. Keep telling yourself that if it makes you feel better." I look at her hard, "Now, did he tell you our offer or not?"
Willow:"He didn't have to" I said "I won't take it." I declared.
Lilah: I lean over quickly, my hands on the arms of her chair, "You want to make a bet on that? You can either accept our offer, or I can make you accept it. The choice is yours."
Willow: "What are you going to do kill me? Ooohhh Scary."
Willow: "You can take it to mean take your offer, fold it into tiny little folded pieces and shove it somewhere that I can't dare mention." I said angry now.
Lilah: "Have it your way. I like torture. A lot." I wave my hand and one of the minions takes her to the back wall, I press a button and one of the walls spins, revealing a
Lilah: St. Andrews cross. They strap her hands and feet to it and walk away, her facing me.
Willow: My eyes darken as she has me strapped to a cross like thing. I was going to make her pay, it may be the last thing I do, but I would make her pay.
Lilah: I pick up my box, laying each of the implements neatly out on the desk. "Where shall we start?" I ask rhetorically. I pick up a small dagger and walk over to her, slicing her clothes off.
Willow: "Eh, didn't like that top anyway." I said not letting my front down.
Lilah: "Yes, well, you may not like this top when I'm done with it either," I say, pressing the blade to her collarbone.
Willow: I bit my lip holding in my screams. I would not give her the pleasure of letting her know she was getting to me.
Lilah: I grin as she bites her lip, trailing the blade up her arm, making a long, shallow slice, repeating the action on the other side as I watch it begin to bleed.
Willow: I couldn't control what I did next, the pain and the desire to hurt her taking over electricity shot through me and I sent her flying back.
Lilah: I flip my head up, as I get up off of the floor. "You little bitch," I fairly growl at her. I do a quick incantation to prevent any use of magic in my office, mentally kicking myself for not doing it earlier.
Willow: "Aww is the poor evil lawyer hurt from falling on her finely dressed ass?" I asked looking at her with dark eyes. The pain from the cuts fading
Lilah: I smooth my skirt, stalking back over to her. "I was going to take it easy on you, but I guess we'll get right to the heart of it," I say with a smirk.
Willow: "You do that" I say as I struggle against the restraints.
Lilah: I drag the dagger down her sternum, cutting to the bone. "I'm sure I'll get there eventually," I say, putting the dagger back on the desk, picking up a device that looks like a rolling pin with razor blades imbedded in it.
Willow: I scream this time, I couldn't stop it. "Just kill me, I'm not joining the firm."
Lilah: "Oh no. No no no, you're not going to die for a very long time, sweet Willow," I say, pressing the rolling pin against her red curls, rolling it up to the bottom of her breasts. I take a step back, enjoying her screams as I watch the blood flowing down her abdomen.
Willow: I let out a scream my body in the worst pain it has ever been.
Lilah: I grab her chin, forcing her to look at me. "You can make this stop, just accept the offer. Oh, that's right, Lindsey was to busy fucking you to actually tell you what it is." I put the rolling pin down, picking up a candle, lighting it. I wait for a moment and then put a custom made brand in it, letting it get red hot.
Willow:"What are you going to do now?" I said through labored breathing "Brand me like cattle? Wouldn't that be more suited for you?" I asked feeling a bit Buffy like.
Lilah: I hold it up, showing her that it's my name. "Well, people already know who I belong to," I smile visciously as I press it to the inside of her thigh, smelling the sickening scent of burning flesh.
Willow: I scream loudly as she burns my flesh. "BITCH"
Lilah: I smile as she screams at me, using a brush to scrub the burned flesh from the brand before I put it back in the fire. "Well, for that, I guess I'll just have to do it where everyone will see," I say, grabbing her chin and jerking her head roughly to the side, pressing the brand to her cheek.
Willow: I let out another loud or should I say louder scream the tears streaming down my face as I started to feel dizzy and start to pass out.
Lilah: I calmly scrub the brand again, placing it on my desk. I walk back over and slap her unmarked cheek. I sigh when she doesn't wake up, disappointed she'd pass out so easily. I sit down at my desk and start the paperwork on this whole situation.
Lindsey and Angel
Lindsey: I woke up and went to kiss Willow, Imagine my surprise when I don't see her there. I looked around and saw my name on a note and read it. Anger already rushing through me. I read Angel's note...was she crazy?! Angel would kill me on sight...especially after what I just did with Willow. Shit...this is just great. The one woman that I could quite possibly really care about is as good as dead...and I'm dead too. I grabbed my clothes and got dressed and paced around the room trying to figure out what to do. I knew they had Willow. "FUCK!" I shouted as I threw my phone against the wall, smashing it to piece. I grabbed my keys out of my pocket and ran out the door, jumping into the truck and hauling ass to Angel Investigations...I walked into the Hyperion Hotel. "Angel! Damn it...where the hell are you!" I shouted
Angel: "I always love the sound of Wolfram and Hart lawyers screaming my name." I said, walking out of my office.
Lindsey:I want to punch that damn smirk off his face. "Willow...she's gone. Wolfram and Hart has her...she went there because of me." I said all in one breathe.
Angel: I grabbed him and threw him against the wall. "You mean you BROUGHT HER THERE?" The fangs came out. "Give me one good reason I shouldn't beat the hell out of you."
Lindsey:Ok, so he had every right to be mad, I struggled to break free, but it was pointless, even if I did. The woman I loved...yeah, I loved her...was still at Wolfram and Hart. "No...I couldn't do it, not to Willow." I said, holding back my emotions. I pushed him off a few feet and then grabbed the note from my pocket. "here...she wanted you to have this."
Angel: I grabbed him again, shoving him into the wall as I looked briefly at the note. "I can smell her all over you. If one hair on her head gets harmed, I will kill you." I then threw him across the lobby.
Lindsey:You'd have to wait...because I'd do it for you if she isn't ok. I got up slowly, damn vampires...I dusted myself off. "Want to keep hitting me? Or try and find Willow?" I finally said.
Angel:"I can't believe she'd go for Wolfram and Hart FILTH like you. What did you do, drug her? No wait, you had your shamans cast some sort of LOVE SPELL!" I hit him a few more times. "We're going to get her and YOU are going to HELP ME!"
Lindsey: I didn't even fight back...I knew in the back of my mind that I deserved this. I wasn't good enough for her. I tried telling her that, but she convinced me that I was something I clearly wasn't. "It wasn't like that...you wouldn't understand...you're incapable of any real HUMAN feelings!" I said back to him. Getting ready for the next hit.
Angel: "I thought a prerequisite for working for Wolfram and Hart that you are devoid of humanity." I socked him one more, hard. He flew backwards.
Lindsey: I stayed on the ground, getting up was a waste of time. "That's right...which is why we were trying to hire you." I countered. "Whether you believe me or not, I care about Willow.I don't want her injured...I'm willing to take her place...she doesn't deserve any of this. It's my fault." I finally said. It was the first time I had admitted it, but it was more for myself.
Angel: "Oh, look at me, I'm so sorry for what Willow is going through, I'm such a naughty, bad lawyer. NO, all you care about is getting a big SCORE for the firm, and hey, why not get your JOLLIES while you're AT IT!"
Lindsey:"Forget it...it was a waste of time coming here. I should have known better. I thought you'd be interested in helping YOUR friend out." I got back up and walked towards the exit. I could try this on my own...I'd die trying...I wasn't just going to go down without a fight.
Angel: With my vampire speed and I got in front of him. "Oh we're getting her back. I never said we weren't." I grabbed him and threw him out the door of the hotel. I just can't help myself, hurting you is a like a reflex." I followed him out. "We're taking my car, I'm driving, and you are shutting up."
Lindsey: I had a shit load to say, but all I wanted was to know that Willow was safe. I followed him and sat down in the car. Fighting the urge to say something. "Look...no matter what happens, I want you to tell Willow I'm sorry." I said. I knew he probably wouldn't tell her anyway. If I died, he probably wouldn't even tell her I went to try and get her out.
Angel: "You'll be lucky if you survive this rescue. I'm not taking it from you anymore, Lindsey. You have put at risk someone I hold very to me and lot of people. If she gets hurt, if she dies, it's on YOU." I sped to the firm.
Lindsey: Great, like I didn't already think this was on me. They wouldn't kill her anyway, they want her too much, but then if she refused they would, because she'd be useless. I sat in silence.
Angel:"Right, stay silent like the scum you are. Let your employer talk for you. I can't believe she...you reek of her." I growled.
Lindsey:This was odd and uncomfortable. "what the fuck do you want me to say? I fucked up? I messed up my job? I had sex with my mark?" I shouted. It wasn't like I already didn't feel bad enough. Please God, just let her be ok. "I don't even care what happens to me, and I know that makes you happy. I just want her to be ok."
Angel: "Tell me you love her. Tell me you weren't just fucking her for the firm. Tell me she's not just another conquest of yours. Because believe me, if that's all that she is to you, the world is going to end when I tell her."
Lindsey:"Either way you won't believe me, but I do love her. I don't know how it happened...it just did. I didn't chose to fall for her...I didn't even know who she was until after. Talk about coincidences...I tried to leave, tell her I didn't have feelings, but I couldn't lie to her. And I'm a damn good liar." I said softly, remembering just holding her in my arms.
Angel: "And you thought you'd have your happily ever after, except your EMPLOYER still wants her. You love her; you leave Wolfram and Hart and don't look back. I won't have her with someone that could turn on her when the time is most profitable to his career!"
Lindsey:"Fuck you" I finally said back. "This isn't about the firm anymore...I just want her to be happy. I'm even prepared to deal with her leaving...I just want her to be happy, even if it's not with me."
Angel: Without looking, I swung my fist backwards, my knuckles connecting his face. His head bounced off the seat from the impact. "Just shut up. You disgust me. How she could possibly have feelings for scum like you I just don't understand."
Lindsey:"Fuck!" I shouted as I grabbed my nose...blood was coming out, my eyes watered. "Fuck you" I said. I didn't know what else to say, all I could think about was Willow. "Quit driving like a pussy and hurry up." I finally said
Angel: I brought the car to a screeching halt, and because Lindsey wasn't wearing a seatbelt, his head bounced off the dashboard. "NO dissing my driving." I told him, then went on towards the firm.
Lindsey:I hit my head this time. I didn't even bother cussing. Damn vampire drivers..."not all of us are dead you know." I finally said. Although he wouldn't care if I died on the way.
Angel: "Some of us are soon to be." I hissed, then kept driving, going faster to get there faster.
Lindsey:I watched as the speed climbed and he zigzagged into oncoming traffic, at least we'd make it there faster, or die in a car accident on the way. "As long as she's happy." I muttered underneath my breathe. I honestly...just wanted her happy and safe. I had come to terms with losing my own life for her.
Angel:"Right, like you care about anybody's happiness other than your own and the senior partners."
Lindsey:"You're right...I'm in it just for me. Your friend...boy was she a helluva
bone." I snapped back. I anticipated the next hit. But it was time for me to quit feeling how I feel. He would tell Willow that I had never cared for her...and she wouldn't be in pain if I died. More like when I died.
Angel:We were almost there and he says something like that. Fuck him. I grabbed him by the neck and contemplated throwing him out of a moving car. No, I didn't want him to die. I stopped. "You piece of TRASH!" I threw him out of the car. "I WILL GET HER MYSELF! DON'T BE HERE WHEN I'M DONE!" I sped off.
Lindsey:I should have just left...cut my losses, but I couldn't. I looked around and took a short cut, running the rest of the way to the Firm. I didn't bother taking the normal elevator >
Lindsey:I swiped my key card and took the service elevator, and then I saw how bad I was. Stupid fucking vampire. Not like I could really fight now...with what little strength I had left.>
Lindsey:I got out on the main floor upstairs and grabbed the secretary by the shirt and pulled her over the desk. "Where is Willow!?" I shouted.
Angel:"Lindsey, you could ask nicely." I said, "Glad you made it. Now security won't throw me out." I vamped out for the secretary. "Now tell him where Willow is."
Lindsey:I saw security coming up the other elevator I walked towards them, standing between Angel and the secretary. "Sir! someone hit the alarm." The first man shouted. "Yeah, I accidentally hit it. There's nothing wrong." I said, "Sir, but your face." I countered, "You know the senior partners, they don't like to be kept waiting. So I'd leave if I were you. I have lots of work to do." I said as the men turned to leave. Glad that I at least still have some power in this damn firm.
Angel:I grabbed the secretary. "You going to talk or am I going to have to make you talk?" I smiled, showing my fangs. "Imagine them in your neck, draining your life away."
Lindsey:I walked back towards Angel...I grabbed the letter opener from her desk and then jumped over the desk and held her foot still as I used the dull blade to cut her Achilles’ tendon making her calf muscle roll up into her leg. She screamed out in pain and showed her true hideous self. Damn wolfram and hart trying to maintain image and hire shapshifters. "Where the fuck is she!" I shouted. "He'll kill you...I'll just torture you slowly...you know I can do it. Tell me where she is damn it!"
Angel:"Impressive, isn't he? No wonder he's the firms top golden boy." She finally told us where Willow is. I let her drop. "You might want to have someone take a look at that. It must hurt so much." I grabbed Lindsey by the scruff and pushed forward. "You lead. Lilah will kill you first and then I'll rescue Willow."
Lindsey:I couldn't help but snicker at Angel's remark. I walked towards the elevator and swiped my card and pushed the floor that Willow was on. Why was the elevator so damn slow! I didn't even register what he had said...I didn't even care.
Angel and Lindsey to the rescue and then the hospital
Angel: “You'd think an evil firm would at least have elevator music." I teased him as we went up. We finally got there and exited, heading for where Willow and Lilah were.
Lindsey: I ran out as soon as the doors open. I saw Willow as she was passing out. I ran towards, her, pushing Lilah aside. "Willow!" I shouted..."I'm here..it's me." I said softly, as I started to take the restraints off. I felt Lilah push me aside and punch me.
Angel: I went over to Lilah and pulled her away from Lindsey, throwing her into her desk. "So this is your hobby. Why Lilah, How serial killer of you." I said, heading over to her. "Lindsey, get Willow out of here!"
Lindsey: I got up and finished untying her from the restraints, she fell into my arms, unconscious. I almost collapsed by the weight, already sore from the beating...but managed to get her over my shoulder and jogged out of the office. And towards the elevator going downstairs and avoiding security by getting off a floor early and taking the stairs.
Lilah: Please tell me we aren't going to do this again," I say to Angel, referring to the time his body was kidnapped and we had sex on his desk.
Angel: "Is it always sex with you, Lilah? There are people that can help you with your nymphomaniac problems." I hit her. "You should look into that."
Lilah: I kick Angel in the balls when he hits me, my legs still free.
Lindsey: I looked at Willow's limp body and went to the parking garage and saw an older truck and opened the door and put her into it. I got into the driver's seat and hot-wired the truck.
Angel: My legs nearly buckled when she did that. I picked her up and threw her over her desk and into the wall. "Not that it's been fun, because it hasn't, but I'm out of here. And if you know what's good for you>
Angel: "You won't EVER go after Willow again." I then left, trying to catch up with Lindsey and Willow.
Lindsey:I peeled out of the parking lot, one arm wrapped around Willow to keep her head from hitting the dash, I for one knew it hurt. Thanks alot Angel. You ass. I finally pulled >
Lindsey: Into the hospital ER and pulled into the ambulance bay as I got out and ran around the other side and opened the door and picked Willow up, holding her in my arms as I walked in through the door. "I need a doctor!" I shouted. A nurse came running towards me with a gurney..."What happened?" I looked at the nurse as I set her down carefully. "I found her like this...she was being tortured...is she going to be ok?" I asked, jogging alongside the gurney and looking at the doctors that came up. "are you immediate family?" I looked at them.."No...bu-" I started to say. "They you did your part...we'll do ours." The doctor said. I stood in the hallway shocked; unable to move.
Lilah: I slide to the floor when he drops me, gingerly touching my face. "Dammit, I hate bruises," I say to myself, grinning at the image of Angel's face as I kicked him. "That was classic," I say as I start the paperwork.
Angel: I got out the building and was able to trace them to a hospital. The air was heavy with the scent of her blood. I hoped she was okay. I rushed into the emergency room.
Lindsey: I was still standing there when I saw Angel. I didn't even want to look at him...I went to sit in the waiting area...still covered in both of our blood's.
Angel: "Is she going to make it? Is she still alive? Talk to me." I said, going over and pacing in front of him.
Lindsey: "I don't know, they won't tell anyone except family." I said..."You're pretty much family...you have a better chance." I said as I leaned back and rested my head against the wall. My life would be over if I was the reason she died. I didn't even get to tell her how I feel.
Angel: Angel: "Fine, then I'll talk to them. You can leave, you don't need to be here anymore. You've caused enough trouble."
Willow: All I felt was pain, excruciating pain. I started to come to as they were working on me the doctors trying to calm me as I called out for Lindsey. I was worried he was dead because of me.
Lindsey: "No, I have every right to be here...just as much as you do." I said, I wasn't even shouting anymore. I was praying to a God I didn't even think existed.
Angel: "Right. You got into this mess, and you're going to make sure she dies, for the firm, right? Got Lilah on speed dial?"
Lindsey: I got up and shoved him hard against the wall, I know it didn't phase him. "Fuck you...you'll never understand." I said as I walked away towards the bathroom, I had to get cleaned up.
Willow: Doctor: I had to find this person she was screaming for, we needed her calm to treat her. I walk out to the two men arguing as one storms off. "Would you be the family of Willow Rosenberg?"
Angel: "Yes, yes, I'm the only family she has. She's not screaming? Is she going to be okay?"
Lindsey:I didn't say anything, I just wanted to know if she was going to be ok. Maybe Angel was right...This was all my fault.
Doctor: "She is screaming for someone named Lindsey." I said looking between the men. "Do you know how I might find this person?"
Angel: My jaw worked. "He's right here. That guy. You're sure it wasn't Angel she was screaming for?"
Lindsey: I looked at the doctor. "I'm Lindsey." I said as I looked at him. "Is she going to be ok?" I asked. I looked at Angel..."He's family." I finally said, biting my tongue as I said it. It was his friend, he had every right to know too.
Doctor: "I am positive it was Lindsey and in order for me to answer the other questions I need to have her calm to treat her."
Angel: "We'll both go. Come on Lindsey, let's see if you're really good for anything."
Lindsey:"Lead the way." I said as I followed him into the room. I was weak in the knee's and almost collapsed at the site. My heart ached...I couldn't see her like this.
Doctor: "Ma'am, I have Lindsey here, please calm down." I said as I tried to calm her.
Willow: "Lindsey?" I said now weaker. I needed to see him.
Lindsey: "Willow." I said finally walking over towards her, taking her hand into my hand and kissing her hand. "I'm here now...." I said softly. "you’re going to be ok."
Angel: "I'm here too, Willow. You will be okay." I said, trying to calm her down and fighting the urge to tear Lindsey away from her.
Willow: "I tried to be brave...to save you..it only ended badly." I said tears falling.
Willow: "Angel?" I asked "You mad at me?" I asked
Lindsey: I reached and gently brushed away the tears from her face. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have let anything happen..." I started to say. "I dont regret it...but I hate seeing you like this. I'm sorry." I said softly.
Angel: "I'm mad at him. What do you see in him?" I started, then stopped. "No, what matters is that you're okay..." I was pacing again.
Lindsey: It's not like I wasn't standing right here. I leaned over to Willow's ear. "I'm not leaving you." I said before kissing her forehead. I looked at the doctor, pleading for him to say it was going to be ok.
Willow: "He is a good man Angel." I said looking at Lindsey "You are a good man."
Lindsey: Good enough to almost have the woman I love die. Yeah, I'm a real good man. I lowered my head and brought her hands to my lips. "I'm sorry." I said softly again.
Angel: "Yeah, right. He works for Evil Inc. My God, what kind of magic has he worked over on you? Don't answer that. Just....get better."
Willow: "He didn't work any magic on me..ironically the other way around, please Angel...he is a good man."
Angel: "You don't know what he's put me through. You don't know him at all, Willow." I stopped myself. "We will talk about this later."
Lindsey: I looked at him, I wanted to hit him...but not in front of Willow. I looked at her body...I still felt woozy just looking at her...the woman I loved, vulnerable like this.
Willow: "I know Angel...I also know what a good man he is now. Please try...for me."
Lindsey: I didn't need his acceptance...I could care less, but I know that Willow wanted it, so I didn't say anything, except squeeze her hand to let her know I was still here.
Angel: "I said we'll talk about it later." I wasn't promising anything. How could she love that that SNAKE? I would bring her back to her senses if it's the last thing I ever do.
Lindsey: I could tell she was getting agitated again. I stood up to look into her eyes.."hey, I'm here...I'm not going anywhere...I don't care what it takes."
Willow: The doctor didn't like that I was getting upset so he made them stop talking about this. Once they got me patched up they transferred me to a room and then all three of us were alone.
Lindsey: I was waiting for WIllow to wake up and had drifted asleep, my head down on her bed my hand still holding hers.
Angel: "Gag me with the sweetness..." I muttered. I sat down, completely frustrated. I just didn't get it.
Willow: I started to wake up as Angel spoke. "Play nice." I mutter
Lindsey: I was having a weird dream and felt Willow stir underneath me. I opened my eyes and smiled at her, "Mornin'" I said softly.
Angel: I got up. "I'm going to go stand in the hallway." I said, not able to take this anymore.
Lindsey: "No, you two can talk. I need coffee." I said as I kissed Willow and left the room.
Angel and Willow in the hospital
Willow: I whimpered as he left "You couldn't play nice could you?" I asked
Angel: "He's evil, Willow. He works for evil, harasses me on a daily basis and did I mention that he's EVIL?"
Willow:"If he was evil he would have followed through with recruiting me. He didn't Angel. I know you think I am naive, you think that I am losing my mind, but I know what I know."
Angel: Angel: "Him? Of all the people you could possibly fall for on the planet it had to be HIM?"
Willow: "Yelling...it won't help Angel." I said "He is not the same man...I don't know how to explain it, I just know."
Angel: "Right, and you stay with him, you get killed. I mean look at you? You think Wolfram and Hart is done with you? You think they're going to like you dating their golden boy? Wake up, Willow "No matter what way you look at it, you stay with him, you will die."
Willow: At least I would die happy. I thought to myself. "Angel...have you even cared to notice how lonely I have been since I moved
here? Xander is busy doing your bidding or you know fighting with you, Buffy is in Rome, Giles in England, and I am surrounded by Gunn and Fred all lovey dovey, Wesley muttering about the books and how he messed up, your kid who hates the world...who does that leave me?" I ask a tear falling "He actually likes me, he genuinely cares for me..." I wanted to say And the sex Good Goddess.... but I didn't. "I know he isn't what they think he is."
Angel: "Great. That's wonderful. Try to play a guilt trip on me. You're the one sitting there in pain because of his employer! You haven't dealt with Wolfram and Hart, Willow. They won't stop until you're working for them or dead. And dating their top recruit, that's only making it worse for you. You want to stay with him, then don't expect me to keep rescuing you!" I got up, heading out, unable to deal with this.
Willow: ”Angel" I said softly "Have you thought. or even bothered to ask if he is going back?"
Angel: "He'd only lie. His goal in life is to make mine miserable and at the same time up his career. But hey, since I haven't slept with him, I guess I can't possibly know how good he is."
Willow:"Have you ever thought that might have changed?" I asked "Angel, I would like to believe the way you do...but then I think about you, and all you did as Angelus and how much you changed…should I doubt your change because people cant change?"
Angel: "That is TOTALLY DIFFERENT!" I said, turning around. "He hasn't done a SINGLE THING to show redemption! He doesn't have a SOUL torturing him! HE WORKS FOR EVIL INC!" A nurse came in to make sure everything was okay. I told her it was and she left. "I don't work evil, Willow. Open your eyes and close your legs!"
Willow: "You know me better than that Angel..." I said softly as to not bring the nurse back in. "I didn't just sleep with him, I didn't just choose to let him take advantage of me..." I whispered "I actually thought he was a psycho coffee spilling stalker, but he showed me a totally different side. He tried to leave, he told me who he was, told me what he was supposed to do and why he couldn't do it...Angel, I am a good judge of character and I know when I see a good man, or a man trying to change...I saw it in you before anyone else wanted to."
Angel: "Well I won't believe it until he leaves Wolfram and Hart. I'm sorry, Willow, but I know him better than you."
Willow: "Then start believing it." I said firmly which only made me hurt more and I started to cough which made matters worse.
Angel: "Just calm down, stop upsetting yourself." I told her, concerned. "You can't just make me believe in him, not after what he's done to me."
Willow: "Will you promise..." I cough up some blood but am ok...ish. "To try?" I ask "You are the only family I have."
Angel: "Maybe I should get a nurse...please calm down. I'll see what I can do." It was as close to making a promise as I could get.
Willow: I nod "I...Ice?" I ask needing the cool and some liquid in my throat.
Angel: I got some ice chips for her and put one to her lips. "There you go."
Willow: I nod sucking on it "thank you" I whisper
Angel: "You're welcome." I paused. "You couldn't have tried Wesley first?" I can't believe I asked that.
Willow: “He loves Fred" I whispered "And its not just about companionship." I said softly "though I need that...its about someone being able to touch a part of me.... Tara had that...Oz had that, and Lindsey has that."
Angel: "Yeah, but Oz, Tara to Lindsey...I just...I don't get it. But...I do care about you. I do."
Willow: "I know you do." I said softly as I reached for his hand. "You are my family..."
Angel: "Yep. That means I have to be mom, dad, basically the entire family. I'm going to have to interrogate him and remain suspicious for a long time. It's the family thing to do."
Willow: I smile "I will take what I can get...if he quits you gonna make him come work for you and clean toilets?" I asked kind of joking.
Angel: "Hmmm. I think toilets are too good for him. I'd make him...scrub the floor of the lobby with a toothbrush. And then clean the toilets with his tongue."
Willow: I give Angel a very pointed look. "watch it mister."
Angel: "Sorry, that was the dad in me talking. I can't help it, I'm protective of you. That and Buffy would stake me if anything ever happened to you."
Willow:: "Can we not tell her about this?"
Angel: "Well...I wasn't planning on making a long distance call to Rome anytime soon..."
Willow: I smile "Thank you"
Angel: "So you really think he'll leave Wolfram and Hart for you?"
Willow: "I know he will." I said "I promise...you will be astounded."
Angel: "Well I'll believe it when I see it." I told her, feeding her another ice chip.
Willow: I suck on it a bit then swallow it down almost choking .
Angel: "You okay? I shouldn't have given you such a big piece..."
Willow: "I am...its going to be hard for a while.."
Angel: “I know...I'm sorry we didn't get there sooner..." I felt bad for wasting time beating on Lindsey instead of rescuing Willow.
Willow: "Its ok, you were probably busy beating up the man I love..." I joke and did I just say love?
Angel: "I was and let's stop saying love. I might get sick." I said, half joking.
Willow: "your just jealous you can't have a formerly evil lawyer of your own." I joked
Angel: "Yeah, 'cause that's what I want in a woman, formerly employed by Wolfram and Hart."
Willow: "Hey, they say once you go evil lawyer you never go back...." I said which got me a look "Ok I totally worded that wrong."
Angel: "Let's quit sticking this in my face, okay?" I gave her another ice chip. "I do want you to be happy."
Willow: I smile as I take the ice. "Tell me something good..." I whisper "I need good stories."
Angel: I tried to think of something good to tell her. "Well...it didn't rain today, all sunny and bright."
Willow: "Nice try...." I said as I laid my head back closing my eyes. "You two won't let them touch me again...Will you?"
Angel: "No way. They won't ever touch you again. I'm kind of surprised you didn't just blow them all up, but no, never again."
Willow: "She did something to stop me...I got one shot in on her then I couldn't do anything else....plus...I was scared of losing control again."
Angel: “Figures she'd know something to stop you. But Willow, you're so strong, I can't imagine you losing control again."
Lindsey and Willow in the hospital
Willow: Angel left for a while when Lindsey came back in, but at least he was willing to try to get used to him.
Lindsey: I let out a sigh when Angel left, feeling a lot better, the tension was lifted. "How you feeling darlin'" I said softly.
Willow: "I'm ok..." I whispered my throat still hurting from everything.
Lindsey: I grabbed a cup of water from the table and put a straw into it. "Here, have some" I said softly, holding the straw up to her mouth.
Willow: I shake my head and point to the ice "ice chips is all for now."
Lindsey: "Oh, sorry" I said as I put the cup and got the ice and put one into her mouth.
Willow: I sucked on it a little and looked at him "W..We need to talk." I said softly.
Lindsey: I pulled the chair closer and looked at her. I was scared...she was talking to Angel for a long time, maybe she was having second thoughts. "Yes?"
Willow: I could beat around the bush but my body hurt so bad I just needed to ask and get it over with. "What are you going to do?"
Lindsey: "What do you mean?" I asked as I took her hand into mine. I brought her hand up to my lips and kissed her hand softly.
Willow: I sighed "Are you staying with the firm." I asked
Lindsey: "Hell no, not after what they did to you? How could you ask that? You think I'm going to stay with them?" I asked, a bit hurt that she even asked me that.
Willow: I took a deep breath which hurt. "That’s what I thought...but I didn't want to assume."
Lindsey: "hey, take it easy." I said I watched her in pain. I wish I had powers to help heal her. "Honestly, I'm not sure where I go from here, but I just want to make sure you're ok and happy."
Willow: I take a deep breath again which yet again hurt...GAH why do I keep doing that? "Linds..just stay with me....please...we will worry about tomorrow."
Lindsey: "I'm not going anywhere, I promise." I said as I kissed her hand again. "We can talk about it later, when you're all better."
Willow: I close my eyes and think about all this...I really almost died today. that thought made me start to panic tears falling.
Lindsey: I leaned over and kissed her softly on the lips, pulling away when I needed to breathe. I brushed the tears away, "Don't cry darlin'" I said softly. "You're going to be ok."
Willow: "They will only come back." I said which caused me to start coughing. Apparently the Dr. heard and a nurse came in to check on me which led to a shot in the arm and I started to calm down.
Lindsey: I leaned over and kissed her again when the nurse left. "Maybe you should get some rest."
Willow: "You won't leave?" I asked as the drug took effect.
Lindsey: "Never." I said before kissing her again. "I'll be here when you wake up."
Willow: I relaxed and closed my eyes
Lindsey: I held her hand and waited until she fell asleep and then softly said, "I love you, Willow.” I don't know why I couldn't say it to her face...but I wanted to at least say it to her. I almost lost her today…before I had a chance to tell her how I felt. I need to just tell her, because I can’t risk losing her and not having her know how I honestly feel.