Can't Sleep
Geez...i wish i could just go to sleep.
I just got way to much on my mind.
I miss him so much.
I just wish i could lay in my bed again with him laying right next to me knowing everything will be ok. But all i can do is look at that empty spot in my bed where he would lay and pray that everything will work out.
I just wish we could at least be friends for now to see how everything would turn out. I know it would be hard to be just friends but i guess it would be better then not having him in my life at all. I love him to much to let him out of my life without a fight. I just wish we could start from the beginning when i first meet him and go on with it again but this time...no mistakes. I have learned whats right and whats wrong and i hope he did too and i wish we could have a fresh start.
But i guess its not gonna work that way.
He wants me out of his life so he can get his back together. Sorry i fucked everything up for him and his dream.
So good luck to you Ryan! Hope to see you on T.V. one day. I still love you with all my heart! I will always be here if you need anyone to talk to.
-Im out-
I just got way to much on my mind.
I miss him so much.
I just wish i could lay in my bed again with him laying right next to me knowing everything will be ok. But all i can do is look at that empty spot in my bed where he would lay and pray that everything will work out.
I just wish we could at least be friends for now to see how everything would turn out. I know it would be hard to be just friends but i guess it would be better then not having him in my life at all. I love him to much to let him out of my life without a fight. I just wish we could start from the beginning when i first meet him and go on with it again but this time...no mistakes. I have learned whats right and whats wrong and i hope he did too and i wish we could have a fresh start.
But i guess its not gonna work that way.
He wants me out of his life so he can get his back together. Sorry i fucked everything up for him and his dream.
So good luck to you Ryan! Hope to see you on T.V. one day. I still love you with all my heart! I will always be here if you need anyone to talk to.
-Im out-