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lets see. my first 2 weeks of work at the bank have been ok. nothing to exciting. all i really do is eat. i like the people i work with. i get along with them esp that hoe colette. beckis been gone for a week. i think she might of ran off and got married or something. jk not yet. but i missed her. bridgette finally got her iPOD and now i want one. and thats about it. my life is soo exciting.
ive come to realize that nothing is really real in this so called life, i guess you can put it that way. i mean things change, people leave you, move on with their life, or even die. i dont know what i was thinking about but ive come to realize its true, friendships fade, people move on, people die, life sucks, everyone wants something different. what you have is only real for the moment and it kind of sucks. it makes it hard to put your trust into something but i guess you have to even if its just to get hurt in the end. maybe i just had a reality check or something and its not fun. i wish my life could be everything that it use to be. but then even i wanted things different. or maybe its i dont know what i want and its hard to realize that life isnt going to be what you want it to be. maybe im talking about two totally different things. maybe i should have my thoughts sorted out before i write. who knows. i guess you just have to learn to live for the moment.