Am I really as good of a caregiver/friend that I thought I was...
I can't fix things anymore. I can't help the people who I love that have strong addictions to alcohol. I don't know how. I have tried all that I can think of, and in the end, I just end up feeling like a failure. In the end, I end up feeling worthless..
I can't help Nikki. I can't take away the pain of being raped. I wasn't there to protect her. I wasn't there to take care of her after it happened. I can't fix it.
I can't fix the the fact that my sister is in pain, and that my nephews life is in danger. I can't fix the fact that she's miserable.
I can't fix the fact that my dad had this surgery and has been sick since he got it.
I can't fix the fact that Lizz's ear surgery didn't go well. I can't change the fact that she'll never really be able to hear without her hearing aids.
I can't fix the fact that most of the people I love are getting more and more into debt. I can't buy them what they need, I can't buy them what they want.
For the first time in my life, I have no one to take care of. I've got Rival, but he's got the rest of the family too. He doesn't need me to take care of him.
Never in my life have I felt so helpless. Watching every one around me in pain and not being able to help them. Not knowing how.
I can't give up who I am. I've always been this way. This is me. Where else do I go?
I can't help Nikki. I can't take away the pain of being raped. I wasn't there to protect her. I wasn't there to take care of her after it happened. I can't fix it.
I can't fix the the fact that my sister is in pain, and that my nephews life is in danger. I can't fix the fact that she's miserable.
I can't fix the fact that my dad had this surgery and has been sick since he got it.
I can't fix the fact that Lizz's ear surgery didn't go well. I can't change the fact that she'll never really be able to hear without her hearing aids.
I can't fix the fact that most of the people I love are getting more and more into debt. I can't buy them what they need, I can't buy them what they want.
For the first time in my life, I have no one to take care of. I've got Rival, but he's got the rest of the family too. He doesn't need me to take care of him.
Never in my life have I felt so helpless. Watching every one around me in pain and not being able to help them. Not knowing how.
I can't give up who I am. I've always been this way. This is me. Where else do I go?