Why does whats best hurt soo much
I got used to being in a relationship where I was not treated the best. I mean Chris never hurt me or anything he was just not compassionate or loving in the way that I am and it made it feel very one sided. After years of that I got tired and I was too scared to confront him about it, cause that meant that I wanted this and this was all my fault. So I did the only thing I knew and that was make it even I just did the same things he did to me. Instead of sitting and watching the shows that he was to stubborn to change cause its what he wanted to watch I left the room sometimes even the house. Of course after months of leaving he house to go to Jenny's he started to think I was cheating on him. So naturally we would bring up the argument that we should not be together and I would always say lets try lets work at it. and then when it came time to make a compromise of course there was no changing Chris' mind, he just kept on being him stubborn self and wanted me to make the changes make the sacrifices. So finally I was breaking and realized that this is not how I wanted my life to be, I do not want to be the only one making changes, sacrifices and so on. So when Chris casually suggested that we get divorced I said ok....well we go on for a few weeks I didn't tell anyone, aside from Jen. But life was pretty normal well anyway I finally got the nerve to tell my brother and then that led to telling my mom and so on, until my whole family knew. Well here it is like 3 months later I have moved out the house a little over 2 months ago and out of town a little over a month ago...and still I go through times when I wonder why I left and what I am gonna do now. I miss having a Husband and a home and my dogs, man I really really miss my dogs.....