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so lately i dont know what my deal is
i feel so utterly alone
i dont feel like i can talk to anyone
and when i do i feel paranoid
i just dont know which way is right
its so hard to know
whatever i do from now on determines
.... MY FUTURE !!
im not handling that well
i hate how ive gone back to the fake smile
the smile that hides the pain
i was honestly happy for a while
and now ive gone right back where i started
again. I DONT KNOW WHAT MY DEAL IS
ps - yes i do. i need him
i feel so utterly alone
i dont feel like i can talk to anyone
and when i do i feel paranoid
i just dont know which way is right
its so hard to know
whatever i do from now on determines
.... MY FUTURE !!
im not handling that well
i hate how ive gone back to the fake smile
the smile that hides the pain
i was honestly happy for a while
and now ive gone right back where i started
again. I DONT KNOW WHAT MY DEAL IS
ps - yes i do. i need him