spill the water
ok.. so my mom never had to get a job at all through high school, and she always use to talk to me about how good that was for her and how her friends had jobs and because of it they had no life and didnt get to enjoy high school like they should, yet she STILL forced me to get a job. a job i completely hate and hate going to. use to i would always look foward to thursday and on because that was the first day of the week that i didnt have to go to cheerleading practice(because i have practice sunday monday tuesday wednesday) and was actually able to go home and be normal and do homework. now instead of looking forward to thursday i just dread them even more.. instead of getting my little break from practice (and living from one little break to the next) i get none at all. now instead of going home on thursday i have to go STRAIGHT from school to work and not get home til ten o'clock. i hate it so much. the people there are such assholes all the time and they just make me want to go leave and go cry. we had a meeting yesterday and i cried all the way to baldwin after it.. and even now just sitting and writing this i find myself crying my eyes out. not only do i just hate being there.. but now i have no time to do my homework. it has added so much stress to my life when i already had plenty before. i have so much to do but cant. also, it would be one thing if i was getting a lot of money out of it or something.. but im getting paid shit and i cant work a ton of hours because i have cheerleading practice so much. i have no time to chill.. like right now i am suppose to be at practice but im not because i know that im going to have to work the rest of this week. so im skipping cheerleading which is where my college scholarship is because i need time to be able to be at home. god i want more than anything to be able to quit so much but i cant.. and for some reason it had such an effect on me. i mean i really really hate it. and THEN my mom calls me IRRESPONSIBLE! i do so much more than she ever had to in high school. i dont understand at all. i dont underdstand what i ever did to make her hate me so much. its like all she wants to do is spite me and make me hate my life. well its worked. i really hate it.
lastly; the guy who owns the place is the biggest womanizer i have ever met. yesterday at the meeting all he could talk about was "tits and ass" THE ENTIRE TIME and how "its ridiculous that our tip jar isnt overflowing" and us "ladies need to be sucking every dollar out of all the male customers any way we can, because (we) know guys will give it. our male customers should love us!". he also ordered us shirts, that once we get we have to wear everytime we work.. and for the girls he got ones that have our logo (which is a giant circle) on each boob! with a palm tree going down the middle!! those are the shirts we are going to have to wear!! i feel so degraded just thinking about that. thinking about what the first thing every guy who walks into the store is going to look at on me. it upsets me so much. but i cant do anything about it. because i have to have a job.
lastly; the guy who owns the place is the biggest womanizer i have ever met. yesterday at the meeting all he could talk about was "tits and ass" THE ENTIRE TIME and how "its ridiculous that our tip jar isnt overflowing" and us "ladies need to be sucking every dollar out of all the male customers any way we can, because (we) know guys will give it. our male customers should love us!". he also ordered us shirts, that once we get we have to wear everytime we work.. and for the girls he got ones that have our logo (which is a giant circle) on each boob! with a palm tree going down the middle!! those are the shirts we are going to have to wear!! i feel so degraded just thinking about that. thinking about what the first thing every guy who walks into the store is going to look at on me. it upsets me so much. but i cant do anything about it. because i have to have a job.