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Hello Everyone,
I have decided that i am going to try and write everyday..
Even though i am not sad or anything..
I am doing pretty well i suppose..
There are those times when its hard..
But now i have the streght to get thur them..
I will not let myself become the person i once was.
Don't get me wrong..
I still have the same feelings as to myself and all that..
But Brian has changed me more than anyone else has.
He's show me that there is someone out there that is my one and only.
That treats me with love and all that.
We are one in the same..
That is the diffreance in me..
Him..
I have come a very long way on my own..don't get me wrong..
But he is mainly why i am the way i am..
I have not had the need to cut in a year. I have been cut free in over a year..
Some of my scars have faded and some haven't which i know they won't..
But truely I am kinda glad they are there b/c its a reminder that i am not that person anymore..
Makes me see the truth of how bad that is had gotten..
And that i am not at that state in my life.. I don't think i will be never again..
Well i can't way never but i truely hope that i do not fall into that hole again.
But you know..
I kinda think that Brian don't understand..
I don't think that he understands the problems i have.
But you know what that is over..
I am not asking him to understand me fully and all..
I just need him to lean on..
And for him to love me, trust me, and push me to be that person i dream of to be.
You know what I have been serizure free for alittle less than 6months.
I am closer and closer to being able to drive.
I am pretty nervous about it really..
I am kinda scared..
I think that i will be okay once i get the hang of it.. i hope.
After that goal..
It's onto the process of schooling..
I have to do the ovr thing to see if i can get it fully paided for..or something.
Because i will not be able to pay for it myself.
Seeing as i am disabled...and have a learning problem..
I will have a very very hard time gonf trhough the schooling..
I would need alot of help..ALOT...
I really hope that i make it..
I Want to be proud of myself.
I want to be able to make a life for myself and future kids.
And all that happy stuff.
But i have gained weight and i am very worried about it..
I weight 130 lbs...super fat .. OMG... I just feel so icky..I have cut down to eating once a day and drinking alot of water what eles can i do????? HELP??? anything..anyway to lose weight fast???please anything
Well...Thats all i really got to say for now..
I think i will wrote alittle later okies..
Much luv ya'll,
Me
I have decided that i am going to try and write everyday..
Even though i am not sad or anything..
I am doing pretty well i suppose..
There are those times when its hard..
But now i have the streght to get thur them..
I will not let myself become the person i once was.
Don't get me wrong..
I still have the same feelings as to myself and all that..
But Brian has changed me more than anyone else has.
He's show me that there is someone out there that is my one and only.
That treats me with love and all that.
We are one in the same..
That is the diffreance in me..
Him..
I have come a very long way on my own..don't get me wrong..
But he is mainly why i am the way i am..
I have not had the need to cut in a year. I have been cut free in over a year..
Some of my scars have faded and some haven't which i know they won't..
But truely I am kinda glad they are there b/c its a reminder that i am not that person anymore..
Makes me see the truth of how bad that is had gotten..
And that i am not at that state in my life.. I don't think i will be never again..
Well i can't way never but i truely hope that i do not fall into that hole again.
But you know..
I kinda think that Brian don't understand..
I don't think that he understands the problems i have.
But you know what that is over..
I am not asking him to understand me fully and all..
I just need him to lean on..
And for him to love me, trust me, and push me to be that person i dream of to be.
You know what I have been serizure free for alittle less than 6months.
I am closer and closer to being able to drive.
I am pretty nervous about it really..
I am kinda scared..
I think that i will be okay once i get the hang of it.. i hope.
After that goal..
It's onto the process of schooling..
I have to do the ovr thing to see if i can get it fully paided for..or something.
Because i will not be able to pay for it myself.
Seeing as i am disabled...and have a learning problem..
I will have a very very hard time gonf trhough the schooling..
I would need alot of help..ALOT...
I really hope that i make it..
I Want to be proud of myself.
I want to be able to make a life for myself and future kids.
And all that happy stuff.
But i have gained weight and i am very worried about it..
I weight 130 lbs...super fat .. OMG... I just feel so icky..I have cut down to eating once a day and drinking alot of water what eles can i do????? HELP??? anything..anyway to lose weight fast???please anything
Well...Thats all i really got to say for now..
I think i will wrote alittle later okies..
Much luv ya'll,
Me