Trying to sort my thoughts.

[lindisease]

I know that I have to somehow deal with this eventually, which is exactly why I should start now. Dulling the pain and finding ways to forget what happened and just ignoring it completely is going to make it worse when it finally hits me

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[hyper_hyper]

It's hard to put this whole thing into perspective.
You weren't a horrible person.
Sure we had a lot in common when we first started going out (and probably still do have a lot in common)...but the main downside was our differences...mainly dealing with attention. We are almost the complete opposites in that area. I've explained it before, but you always say you don't understand. I can't really put it any other way...I don't need attention. I could care less if nobody loved me or even liked me a lot. Sure, it's a really confidence booster and it feels great when someone likes you, but I could care less. Your mind seems to be set on "If Josh would rather do this than spend time with me, he doesn't love me." It has been that way for quite some time. I can't do that. It's hard. I loved spending time with you, but I didn't like spending too much time with you, or anyone. It's hard to say...it's just the way I am. I can't help that. I don't mean to be negative, and I know it sounds bad, but I don't like spending a lot of time with people.
I don't know what to say....it's getting really, really hot again so I'm getting frustrated. I'll keep in touch.
Bye.

[hyper_hyper]

"Sure, it's a really confidence booster"
really = real