No failures!

Apr 27, 2006 14:23

My marks have all come up, and none of them are failures. To be sure, some of them are lower than I'd have liked, but that's at least in part because my grade desires are now way out of sync with the time and effort I want to put into school. Still, I really would have liked to do better in graphics; knowing what I know now, if I were in the same position, I would probably drop the math class I took and leave it for the summer. Well, eventually I want to implement that photon mapping stuff anyway, although lord only knows when I'll get around to that.

Actually, I thought I might like to rewrite my tracer; make sure the architecture makes sense, implement a lot more in the way of speed enhancements, and so on. I want to implement photon mapping, volumetric scattering, maybe Beer's law, and so on. I really want to figure out a better way to deal with indices of refraction (specifically, what the index is on the other side of the intersected object). And so on and so forth. Such grand ambitions. Fits in along well with my desire to draw a webcomic, a novelist, an art student, etc. in my pantheon of things I'll probably never get around to doing.

Anyway, passing everything means that my summer schedule is go, and that all I have to do is pass my two 4th year CS courses (databases and AI) and social psychology (is there writing involved in that? I've been so spoiled by Burris's multiple choice test-only class) and I can graduate.

Actually, that's pretty scary.

I can't even really handle school very well right now. I don't think I'm ready for the real world.

Oh, I have my car now, and I've done a fair amount of driving in it. I'm a happy camper. I like little cars, personally. My transportation capacity is drastically reduced from the van, but I really didn't need that capacity all that often, anyway. I can still move around five people, and my trunk is reasonably sized (and the back seats fold down, too, I think).

I can probably even bring my DDR mats (or the working one, anyway, assuming one of them DOES work), although I'm not terribly sure that's a good idea for my poor knee. I seem to have three choices: remaining lazy and fat, destroying my knee, or swimming (which I do like well enough when I do it, but which is kind of a pain in the butt to get myself to go do). Still, if one of my mats works, that plus my PS controller USB adapter plus StepMania = cheap/already paid for entertainment for as long as I can stand it. I really regret that skiiing accident that killed my knee. It never would have happened if I hadn't been trying to overcome my cautiousness that weekend, and it's really messed me up. My busted knee is going to be with me for the rest of my life, and it will only get worse as I get older.

Oh well. No sense in regretting something like that. I can't change it, and though it's not a mistake I'll likely repeat again, the damage is now done.

I should stop avoiding the cleaning of my room, I guess. Doing my laundry yesterday helped a great deal, but now I have to get down to the point where I sort out my clothes and so on--figure out what I'm bringing with me to Waterloo, what I'm keeping in storage, and what I'm getting rid of. And try to get rid of some of my other junk, while I'm at it, so I can make a place to store all my other crap. Lord. It sure would be nice if I ever THREW ANYTHING OUT.

material possessions, graphics, moving, successes, school, frustrations

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