It's hard, isn't it, when there aren't any words. Because we are wordy people, and when there aren't words, it's just... weird and kind of distressing and definitely frustrating. I know what you mean about wanting to try.
My body is getting SO MUCH SIDE EYE from me right now. It was all with the 'look what a good job I'm doing keeping you pregnant!' uh, yeah, well since I'm not actually pregnant WITH anything, it would be really nice if you could stop that. No, really. Stop that. Stop th--oh, fuck it. And if I get to the point where there's an actual baby next time, you damned well better be just as stubborn about keeping it going, do you fucking hear me? Yeah, you better hear me.
People getting in people's faces about how many kids they should or shouldn't have is just... such a thing of rawr for me. It makes me get twitchy with rage and yet it's not appropriate to yell at people about it. I work with a woman who is politely but adamantly child free, and she takes SO much static from the people in my workplace about it (she's in her early 30s like I am, but most of the people I work with are late 40s to 60+). And it just pisses me off. She doesn't want to have kids, she doesn't HAVE to have kids. Leave her the fuck alone! It's her damned choice!
Meanwhile, I've been under speculation since before I gave birth to the twins about when I'd get pregnant again, with a side balance of all the people congratulating me on having one of each because apparently that means I have the perfect family and I'm done and if I have any more than that well what the fuck is wrong with you, why would you need to do that, you have a boy and a girl so you don't NEED to keep trying.
And I'm still not allowed to yell at people. It's really not fair.
But it's done, and I'm done, and the surgery wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be, and I'm extremely grateful that I'm over that part. The holding pattern was slowly doing me in.
My body is getting SO MUCH SIDE EYE from me right now. It was all with the 'look what a good job I'm doing keeping you pregnant!' uh, yeah, well since I'm not actually pregnant WITH anything, it would be really nice if you could stop that. No, really. Stop that. Stop th--oh, fuck it. And if I get to the point where there's an actual baby next time, you damned well better be just as stubborn about keeping it going, do you fucking hear me? Yeah, you better hear me.
People getting in people's faces about how many kids they should or shouldn't have is just... such a thing of rawr for me. It makes me get twitchy with rage and yet it's not appropriate to yell at people about it. I work with a woman who is politely but adamantly child free, and she takes SO much static from the people in my workplace about it (she's in her early 30s like I am, but most of the people I work with are late 40s to 60+). And it just pisses me off. She doesn't want to have kids, she doesn't HAVE to have kids. Leave her the fuck alone! It's her damned choice!
Meanwhile, I've been under speculation since before I gave birth to the twins about when I'd get pregnant again, with a side balance of all the people congratulating me on having one of each because apparently that means I have the perfect family and I'm done and if I have any more than that well what the fuck is wrong with you, why would you need to do that, you have a boy and a girl so you don't NEED to keep trying.
And I'm still not allowed to yell at people. It's really not fair.
But it's done, and I'm done, and the surgery wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be, and I'm extremely grateful that I'm over that part. The holding pattern was slowly doing me in.
*hugs back. Lots*
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