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ok i think this is like my third or fourth update today.....but
I dont like him anymore. he makes me mad and sad and pissed..but at the same time i love that he makes me that way...but hes to predictable...its like ik exactly what hes gonna say next and how hes gonna say it and when and ik exactly when hes gonna care and when hes not gonna care. i need excitement i need suprises i need to be happy i need to be sad... and i need to be able to fuck things up once in a while.... i want my heart to stop when i see him i wanna be nurvous to talk to him i want to be sooo nurvous when at the bottom of the im it says hes typing and be soo nurvous im gonna fuck things up with what i said and yet be excited at the same time.... i dont feel that with him im myself around him... im not nurvous at all i dont get that excited when i see him and i never ever no matter what i do i just cant seem to fuck things up...idk