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wow im actually not in a good mood at all.... idk what it is all the sudden. im being a bitch to everyone. i went from not caring last week to to being so confused about everything this week. its like every little thing anyone says i have to think in entierly out. and analyze everything.
I feel like back up so much. its like with all my freinds they have thos people they are always doing shit with. but they only hang out with me when theres absolutly no one else. im the last resort im second best. or it can be like im aloud to listen to everyones problems and give them the best advice i can, and try to help them out the best i can. but the minute i need any help its idk lina or i dont have time to talk about this.
im so excited that summers here. but its like idk what im doing at all with anything. all summer what am i supose to do when all my friends have plans and i have nothing to do. also what am i doing with my life..ik ik its to soon to think about that but its not. everone has something they are good at something that will get them somewhere, but me all im good at is ruinging friendships and messing up peoples lives. idk anything anymore.
I've come to my senses,
That I've become senseless,
I could give you lessons on how to ruin your friendships,
Every last conviction, I smoked them all away,
I drank my frustrations down the drain, out of the way,
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
Someone so tired of their routines and disappearing self-esteems,
I'll sing along,
Yeah with every emergency,
Just sing along,
I'm the king of catastrophies,
I'm so far gone,
That deep down inside I think it's fine by me,
I'm my own worst enemy
I could be an expert on co-dependency,
I could write the best book on underage tragedy,
I've been spending my time at the local liquor store,
I've been sleeping nightly on my best friends kitchen floor,
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
I'm so over-dosed on apathy and burnt out on sympathy.
Let the meaning slip away
Lost my faith in another day,
Self deprication seems okay,
I never thought I'd make it anyways.
^READ IT its worth it and how i feel.
I feel like back up so much. its like with all my freinds they have thos people they are always doing shit with. but they only hang out with me when theres absolutly no one else. im the last resort im second best. or it can be like im aloud to listen to everyones problems and give them the best advice i can, and try to help them out the best i can. but the minute i need any help its idk lina or i dont have time to talk about this.
im so excited that summers here. but its like idk what im doing at all with anything. all summer what am i supose to do when all my friends have plans and i have nothing to do. also what am i doing with my life..ik ik its to soon to think about that but its not. everone has something they are good at something that will get them somewhere, but me all im good at is ruinging friendships and messing up peoples lives. idk anything anymore.
I've come to my senses,
That I've become senseless,
I could give you lessons on how to ruin your friendships,
Every last conviction, I smoked them all away,
I drank my frustrations down the drain, out of the way,
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
Someone so tired of their routines and disappearing self-esteems,
I'll sing along,
Yeah with every emergency,
Just sing along,
I'm the king of catastrophies,
I'm so far gone,
That deep down inside I think it's fine by me,
I'm my own worst enemy
I could be an expert on co-dependency,
I could write the best book on underage tragedy,
I've been spending my time at the local liquor store,
I've been sleeping nightly on my best friends kitchen floor,
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
I'm so over-dosed on apathy and burnt out on sympathy.
Let the meaning slip away
Lost my faith in another day,
Self deprication seems okay,
I never thought I'd make it anyways.
^READ IT its worth it and how i feel.