I hate this month.
I am in so much pain right now its ridiculous. I hate head colds. The whole left side of my face hurts. even my eyeball. Not cool.
we have about a trillion inches of snow on the ground. If only this had happened during the week instead of the weekend...
last night I forced myself to go out with my friends. Kind of a mistake. My friend Jeff was trying to cheer me up..he was talking to me for awhile about how dumb dave is and how he's an idiot for leaving someone as perfect as me...yada yada yada..he was being way too sweet..and then all of a sudden he just started making out with me? it was horrible. I felt so guilty afterwards like I had just cheated on dave. I went into the bathroom and just cried because i was so overwhelmed by guilt..that i really should not of even had. But still i felt it.
i have so much work to do and no motivation to do any of it. I would rather just lay in bed and stare at the ceiling...pathetic
another good thing that has come out of all this is the closer relationship that I have been developing with my friends. Esp. jackie and joelle.
and i have started going to church. I dont know why but going to church has made me feel a lot better in many ways.
Im trying to make positives out of negatives. but i still feel like crap about all of this.
please pray for the left side of my face. Thank you.
we have about a trillion inches of snow on the ground. If only this had happened during the week instead of the weekend...
last night I forced myself to go out with my friends. Kind of a mistake. My friend Jeff was trying to cheer me up..he was talking to me for awhile about how dumb dave is and how he's an idiot for leaving someone as perfect as me...yada yada yada..he was being way too sweet..and then all of a sudden he just started making out with me? it was horrible. I felt so guilty afterwards like I had just cheated on dave. I went into the bathroom and just cried because i was so overwhelmed by guilt..that i really should not of even had. But still i felt it.
i have so much work to do and no motivation to do any of it. I would rather just lay in bed and stare at the ceiling...pathetic
another good thing that has come out of all this is the closer relationship that I have been developing with my friends. Esp. jackie and joelle.
and i have started going to church. I dont know why but going to church has made me feel a lot better in many ways.
Im trying to make positives out of negatives. but i still feel like crap about all of this.
please pray for the left side of my face. Thank you.