so many things a regret...
Hehehe life has its twists... And its up and downs... But God will use them!
I regret SO much! But I wouldnt change a thing!
Baldy asked me out, and I said "yes" altough in the back of my mind I could hear God say "NO" I didnt wanna say no because I always hurt him.. I always said no... And I wanted to be with him.
Well we went through some things.. And did some stuff... We went to far :/ And I knew we souldn't!! But I started to fall in love with him... I don't know if it was falling in love with him, or if it was loving falling in love... I don't think I will ever know... But I love him SO much!!! He is my best friend!!! He is him and I love him! I just don't know how...
Well we werent close to, God and we pulled eachother farther away from Him. I took away from his purity and his wife! And I'm SO sorry for this!!! I took his innocence, and he from mine... And I will forever BEG, his family's, his, and his wife's frogiveness!!
We did NOT have sex ANYWHERE in any of this. We just went farther then God wanted. Me by saying yes. And thats the BIGGEST thing.
Now I'm judged by others.. And I'm not aloude to hang out with some of my friends (not b/c they don't wanna. but b/c their parents wont let them) and I have more restrictions. I have lost trust I once had, and I will boldly deal with that...
I know God is going to use this! I KNOW God is going ot make this into something great!!! B/c God is totally awseome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what I have learned in all of this is that God can heal anything! He can forgive anything! I know God has forgiven me! I Know I am healed! Not just me But everybody that this has hurt can be healed by God! Anybody in anything can be healed and forgiven!! And NOT b/c he has to, but b/c He wants to!
And God is teaching my to not worry about the expectations of others. He is teaching me to totally lean on Him!
1Pe 4:8 and above all things having fervent love to yourselves, "because love will cover a multitude of sins." Prov. 10:12
1Pe 4:9 Be hospitable to one another without murmurings,
And I know that God is going to use this to his grace! This will find purpose in Him!! And now I will never forget that God created me special and that He is taking care of me. Even when I often make mistakes
col 1:16 For everything, absolutely everything, above and below, visible and invisalbe... everything got started in Him and finds it's purpose in Him.
Rom 3:3 For what if some were without faith? Will their lack of faith nullify the faithfulness of God? 4 May it never be! Yes, let God be found true, but every man a liar. As it is written, "That you might be justified in your words, and might prevail when you come into judgment."
5 But if our unrighteousness brings out God's rightteousness more clearly, what sahl we say? That God is unjust in bringing His wrathon us? (I am using a human argument.) 6 Certinaly not! For then how will God judge the world? 7 For if the truth of God through my lie abounded to his glory, why am I also still judged as a sinner? 8 Why not (as we are slanderously reported, and as some affirm that we say), "Let us do evil, that good may come?" Those who say so are justly condemned. 9 What then? Are we better than they? No, in no way. 10 As it is written:
"There is no one righteous; no, not one;
11 there is no one who understands.
there is no one who seeks after God.
12 They have all turned away.
They have together become worthless;
there is no one who does good,
no, not, so much as one."
13 "Their throat is an open tomb.
With their tongues they have used deceit."
"The poison of vipers is under their lips;"
14 "Whose mouth is full of cursing and bitterness."
15 "Their feet are swift to shed blood.
16 Destruction and misery are in their ways.
17 The way of shalom, they haven't known."
18 "There is no fear of God before their eyes."
21 But now the righteousness of God apart from the law has been revealed, being witnessed to by the Law and the Prophets, 22 even the righteousness of God, through faith in Jesus Christ, to all and upon all those that believe. For there is no distinction; 23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, 24 being justified freely by His grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus,
Rom 25 whom God set forth as a propitiation through faith in His blood, for a demonstration of His righteousness through the passing over of the sins having previously occurred, in the forbearance of God, 26 for a demonstration of His righteousness in the present time, that He might be just and the justifier of the one who has faith in Jesus.
Rom 4:7 "Blessed are they
whose transgressions are forgiven,
whose sins are covered.
8 "Blessed is the man
whose sin the Lord will never count against
him."
I Know me sin will never be used agains me! but will be used for God!! And not through me can this ever happen b/c I'm full of sin!! but b/c God is AMAZING!!!
Sorry this is SO long...
Rom 5:1 Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 3 And not only that, but we also rejoice in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces endurance; 4 and endurance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put to shame, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us. 6You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the unGodly.
I regret SO much! But I wouldnt change a thing!
Baldy asked me out, and I said "yes" altough in the back of my mind I could hear God say "NO" I didnt wanna say no because I always hurt him.. I always said no... And I wanted to be with him.
Well we went through some things.. And did some stuff... We went to far :/ And I knew we souldn't!! But I started to fall in love with him... I don't know if it was falling in love with him, or if it was loving falling in love... I don't think I will ever know... But I love him SO much!!! He is my best friend!!! He is him and I love him! I just don't know how...
Well we werent close to, God and we pulled eachother farther away from Him. I took away from his purity and his wife! And I'm SO sorry for this!!! I took his innocence, and he from mine... And I will forever BEG, his family's, his, and his wife's frogiveness!!
We did NOT have sex ANYWHERE in any of this. We just went farther then God wanted. Me by saying yes. And thats the BIGGEST thing.
Now I'm judged by others.. And I'm not aloude to hang out with some of my friends (not b/c they don't wanna. but b/c their parents wont let them) and I have more restrictions. I have lost trust I once had, and I will boldly deal with that...
I know God is going to use this! I KNOW God is going ot make this into something great!!! B/c God is totally awseome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what I have learned in all of this is that God can heal anything! He can forgive anything! I know God has forgiven me! I Know I am healed! Not just me But everybody that this has hurt can be healed by God! Anybody in anything can be healed and forgiven!! And NOT b/c he has to, but b/c He wants to!
And God is teaching my to not worry about the expectations of others. He is teaching me to totally lean on Him!
1Pe 4:8 and above all things having fervent love to yourselves, "because love will cover a multitude of sins." Prov. 10:12
1Pe 4:9 Be hospitable to one another without murmurings,
And I know that God is going to use this to his grace! This will find purpose in Him!! And now I will never forget that God created me special and that He is taking care of me. Even when I often make mistakes
col 1:16 For everything, absolutely everything, above and below, visible and invisalbe... everything got started in Him and finds it's purpose in Him.
Rom 3:3 For what if some were without faith? Will their lack of faith nullify the faithfulness of God? 4 May it never be! Yes, let God be found true, but every man a liar. As it is written, "That you might be justified in your words, and might prevail when you come into judgment."
5 But if our unrighteousness brings out God's rightteousness more clearly, what sahl we say? That God is unjust in bringing His wrathon us? (I am using a human argument.) 6 Certinaly not! For then how will God judge the world? 7 For if the truth of God through my lie abounded to his glory, why am I also still judged as a sinner? 8 Why not (as we are slanderously reported, and as some affirm that we say), "Let us do evil, that good may come?" Those who say so are justly condemned. 9 What then? Are we better than they? No, in no way. 10 As it is written:
"There is no one righteous; no, not one;
11 there is no one who understands.
there is no one who seeks after God.
12 They have all turned away.
They have together become worthless;
there is no one who does good,
no, not, so much as one."
13 "Their throat is an open tomb.
With their tongues they have used deceit."
"The poison of vipers is under their lips;"
14 "Whose mouth is full of cursing and bitterness."
15 "Their feet are swift to shed blood.
16 Destruction and misery are in their ways.
17 The way of shalom, they haven't known."
18 "There is no fear of God before their eyes."
21 But now the righteousness of God apart from the law has been revealed, being witnessed to by the Law and the Prophets, 22 even the righteousness of God, through faith in Jesus Christ, to all and upon all those that believe. For there is no distinction; 23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, 24 being justified freely by His grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus,
Rom 25 whom God set forth as a propitiation through faith in His blood, for a demonstration of His righteousness through the passing over of the sins having previously occurred, in the forbearance of God, 26 for a demonstration of His righteousness in the present time, that He might be just and the justifier of the one who has faith in Jesus.
Rom 4:7 "Blessed are they
whose transgressions are forgiven,
whose sins are covered.
8 "Blessed is the man
whose sin the Lord will never count against
him."
I Know me sin will never be used agains me! but will be used for God!! And not through me can this ever happen b/c I'm full of sin!! but b/c God is AMAZING!!!
Sorry this is SO long...
Rom 5:1 Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 3 And not only that, but we also rejoice in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces endurance; 4 and endurance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put to shame, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us. 6You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the unGodly.