just a spirit in the material world
let's focus on the positive instead of me launching into a long-winded entry on how i HATE this time of the month with the bill paying and the budgeting and the trying to figure out how to live a champagne life on a stella artois income. IF i were going to write about the pissy, i'd also include a rant and rave about how high our electric bills are going to be this summer as i DGAF about cost when i am battling humidity.
ahem.
so, the positive - and there's a lot! =D
~ my garden is growing like mad and i've given up being meticulous in keeping track of what's going where and just gloriously embracing the chaos of scattering seeds. so what if i don't get all of the seeds in the ground? there will be, lort willing, next year. :)
over the next few days, there will be potatoes, flowers, herbs, tomatoes planted and i may be able to get some seeds started for late summer planting. we'll just have to see!
~ things have picked back up with wl - 2.6 lbs lost last week. just four ounces short of 50 lbs total gone. when i saw how close i was to that goal, i took off my headband and fitbit to see if i could get down 4 ounces. lol didn't happen. :( apparently, my scale knows when you're pulling shenanigans and just denied me. the fucker. lol
because i still have a ways to go for all health goals, i'm changing things up right now in an effort to really pull workouts in. not walks, not steps, but legit stupid cardio and stupid strength training.
i'm also looking at the next few months as an important time to put a lot more energy into mindset shifts. i feel like i have a really good handle on the diet, so just pouring more into diet honestly feels like avoidance - because changing thinking is harder than changing the food part of the equation.
i'm really excited about what the next changes will bring.
- some goals for this summer --
* go canoeing on one of the 17,293,292 lakes around here!
* pick a trail and go hiking on it!
* camp nano!
* get physically safe for riding - stupid strength training. ;)
i need to stress how proud i am of me - and what really chuffs me is how proud mister and the kid are. :)
~ i can't believe how great the chickens are doing. o.O i also can't believe how onboard the mister is with all of this - he even is trying to tell me to get more today! lol we need to discuss a few things with our chicken experts (eggsperts) about our setup, and then i might be willing to go grab some. we're up to 17 right now (!!!!) and i think another 14 would be a very good stopping point.
[omg, i am insane. lol]
part of the desire for more is that if i'm going to sell eggs, i need more eggs to sell. right? it's not that i want to be a commercial egg seller, but i would not mind making enough each laying season to pay for their food, our eggs, and reimburse ourselves for what we've spent on coop/yard $$$.
everything i've learned about life, I've learned from Lucy.
i also want guinea fowl, but that may be next year. =D
~ the barn is up. the arena fence line has posts where the fence will be. in theory? we could have horses within the next month. IN THEORY. o.O how lovely it is that we had a plan and the plan is blossoming. dreams do come true, y'all.
~ wow. just focusing on the positive made me feel much better! look at me being a queen with mindset shifts already! =D
ok. time to tidy up and get some bread started. xo