i want to prove everyone wrong
So I'm constantly getting guilt trips from my family now. All of my things are now at Shawn's and I'm here at my Dad's for Finals week. My stepmother is in the other room crying loudly and exaggerated. It really is unfair. Mom does the same thing. "He's not the boy for you Sarah and you know it!", she says. I really do tire of the constant criticisms without the facts. It can't be that I have wanted this for five years and now don't know what to do with it as everyone thinks. If that was the case I wouldn't have had such a hard time believing it all. If you see my past posts, all I talked about is how I yearned for him to return my love. When he finally did, I hadn't the slightest idea what to do. I'm not certain why everyone knows what I should do in life. I got a voice message from my Aunt Vicky. I'm not sure what she is going to say if I call her. I bet it will be along the lines of "Christianity is against all of your sinful ways." I'm just no good at that kind of confrontation. I can't say I've given up the religion. I've just found love that i fear is beyond all of them. My mom's been divorced twice and now is alone with cats. Dad is in a loveless marriage. I just don't see myself following people like that. Grandma and Papaw are unhappy as well. Conard and Vicky are in fact the only happy married couple I know. Maybe I'd take Vicky seriously, but the rest haveno room to judge me. I can't say I'm not a little nervous. Who isn't nervous about change? I just know what I am "jumping into" is worth the risk. I am going to be absolutley wonderful. I don't want the guilt. I don't need to feel watched anymore. I am moving on. They should be supportive.