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the daily routine grips at my ribs trying to pull me apart at the seems. I try not to give into this feeling of just swaying with the motion of just going with the waves and just sinking into. I try to thrash against them move in any way I can, hoping that I will swim or escape thier grip or at least to not go down so easily. I try to appreciate every day for the different opportunities it presents to me. I think everbody has a set of principles to which they live thier life. Sometimes we forget these principles and drift along. I am saying to you that I feel like I have some how lost sight of what my principles are and have not been living up to them. I have been an embarassment to me and those that have supported me. I think some people work and thrive differntly, I am beginning to think I work best when I am angry and have something to prove or when I can stop thinking as weird as that sounds. Maybe this is all bullshit it is certainly rantish...that is all for now.