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i cant sleep.
i am lying here in bed staring at things, which is ironic because i can't see at all. i think i prefer the view out my window without vision correction, though. all postcards and pictures show you what a city skyline should look like, all twinkly and in focus. but, blind as a bat, i can see it as not many do...a huge blur of golden spheres floating below a velvety navy-blue sky. as i look up at my ceiling i see the shadow of my desk chair from the lights through the window. its so big i cant mistake it. and next to it is the sideways projection of the time (my alarm clock projects the time onto my ceiling in blue)--it says 10:52. It always does--the projector is broken.
its been a while since i lay in bed for three hours without falling asleep. usually it takes me about 10 minutes. but i cant turn my brain off.
the world is really mind-boggling when you think about it. im trying to imagine what everyone i know is doing at this exact moment. but of course, it's impossible to imagine it all simultaneously. then if you think about the fact that six billion people are all doing different things, thinking or dreaming different thoughts or dreams, all RIGHT NOW...
and i am just one tiny person who can't fall asleep. .
how many people are laying in bed trying, but failing, to fall asleep, right now?
how many people are alone right now?
how many people are having sex right now?
how many people are being born right now?
i cant see my computer screen unless i hold it two inches from my nose., so please excuse any typos.
i cant sleep.
i am lying here in bed staring at things, which is ironic because i can't see at all. i think i prefer the view out my window without vision correction, though. all postcards and pictures show you what a city skyline should look like, all twinkly and in focus. but, blind as a bat, i can see it as not many do...a huge blur of golden spheres floating below a velvety navy-blue sky. as i look up at my ceiling i see the shadow of my desk chair from the lights through the window. its so big i cant mistake it. and next to it is the sideways projection of the time (my alarm clock projects the time onto my ceiling in blue)--it says 10:52. It always does--the projector is broken.
its been a while since i lay in bed for three hours without falling asleep. usually it takes me about 10 minutes. but i cant turn my brain off.
the world is really mind-boggling when you think about it. im trying to imagine what everyone i know is doing at this exact moment. but of course, it's impossible to imagine it all simultaneously. then if you think about the fact that six billion people are all doing different things, thinking or dreaming different thoughts or dreams, all RIGHT NOW...
and i am just one tiny person who can't fall asleep. .
how many people are laying in bed trying, but failing, to fall asleep, right now?
how many people are alone right now?
how many people are having sex right now?
how many people are being born right now?
i cant see my computer screen unless i hold it two inches from my nose., so please excuse any typos.
i cant sleep.