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Long time no entry.
I find that my mind is bogged down with my thoughts, I wish I had a Pensieve like Dumbledore did in Harry Potter. Just a little bowl to store your thoughts in so they don't weigh you down as much.
Drama always likes to find a way to seep through into our lives. I'm really quite sick of it frankly. I'm perfectly secure with myself, and it makes me laugh when people are so unhappy with themselves that they take on the personality, behavior, style etc of someone that's well liked. Then there are people who think they're too cool for everyone else, when really they're full of hot air. It angers me, how people can just look down you for no reason at all.
always forgive your enemies-nothing annoys them so much
-Oscar Wilde
Boys...are complicated. Very complicated. Or maybe it's my way of dealing with them that's complicated. Right now I sort of feel like a pinata thats been smacked open and all the pieces are on the ground up for the taking. It's not like I'm hurt or anything, my feelings for people are just scattered. I have a feeling that when I might not want to deal with someone's feelings for me, I subconciously make myself like someone else, . Usually this person is a very bad person to like. I think I self -destruct myself, because I just can't risk feeling bad anymore. It also really really bothers me when girls act stupid to get boy attention, because it works. I will never EVER compromise my intelligence just to get whats his face to grab my ass. No thank you.I'm glad I see through sweet talkers, it's a bunch of crap. I just play along and smile now because they are all so transparent.
School has me stressed out. Right now I have mostly B's, meaning I need to shape up. I want a 4.0, and badly. The thing that bothers me the most is English. Perlman is convinced I'm this stupid bimbo for some insane reason. it bothers me that I contantly get B's on his in class essays, but he doesn't make any corrections and very few comments. I always loved English, but his class makes me feel inadequate. It makes me mad because I know for a fact that I'm one of the biggest contributers if not the biggest, in class discussions, and he's usually pretty impressed on what I think up. But everytime I harder and harder and still get the same grade. =/
Things to do
-Finish Drivers Ed, do permit test.
-Get haircut
-reread Interview with a Vampire
-Sort my feelings out. Color code them. Alpabetize them. File them in a nice clean manilla folder and stick them in a grey multilevel filing cabinet.
I get to see Lestat tomorrow in San Francisco :D
I find that my mind is bogged down with my thoughts, I wish I had a Pensieve like Dumbledore did in Harry Potter. Just a little bowl to store your thoughts in so they don't weigh you down as much.
Drama always likes to find a way to seep through into our lives. I'm really quite sick of it frankly. I'm perfectly secure with myself, and it makes me laugh when people are so unhappy with themselves that they take on the personality, behavior, style etc of someone that's well liked. Then there are people who think they're too cool for everyone else, when really they're full of hot air. It angers me, how people can just look down you for no reason at all.
always forgive your enemies-nothing annoys them so much
-Oscar Wilde
Boys...are complicated. Very complicated. Or maybe it's my way of dealing with them that's complicated. Right now I sort of feel like a pinata thats been smacked open and all the pieces are on the ground up for the taking. It's not like I'm hurt or anything, my feelings for people are just scattered. I have a feeling that when I might not want to deal with someone's feelings for me, I subconciously make myself like someone else, . Usually this person is a very bad person to like. I think I self -destruct myself, because I just can't risk feeling bad anymore. It also really really bothers me when girls act stupid to get boy attention, because it works. I will never EVER compromise my intelligence just to get whats his face to grab my ass. No thank you.I'm glad I see through sweet talkers, it's a bunch of crap. I just play along and smile now because they are all so transparent.
School has me stressed out. Right now I have mostly B's, meaning I need to shape up. I want a 4.0, and badly. The thing that bothers me the most is English. Perlman is convinced I'm this stupid bimbo for some insane reason. it bothers me that I contantly get B's on his in class essays, but he doesn't make any corrections and very few comments. I always loved English, but his class makes me feel inadequate. It makes me mad because I know for a fact that I'm one of the biggest contributers if not the biggest, in class discussions, and he's usually pretty impressed on what I think up. But everytime I harder and harder and still get the same grade. =/
Things to do
-Finish Drivers Ed, do permit test.
-Get haircut
-reread Interview with a Vampire
-Sort my feelings out. Color code them. Alpabetize them. File them in a nice clean manilla folder and stick them in a grey multilevel filing cabinet.
I get to see Lestat tomorrow in San Francisco :D