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This week I've been fortunate enough to be house sitting
unfortunatley they keep mice *pew*
It's great managing my own living. For some reason I enjoy all the daily little tasks such as house cleaning, cooking, washing the dishes etc. It makes me feel more normal and less crazed/on-edge like I feel at home. Maybe it's related to the fact that I have my own physical space that I can feel clearer about my mental space.
I like living alone :)
I'm also attending an intensive UNI course that's been condensed from a semester into a week. It's music based so although it's tough at times, it's still heaps of fun.
Socially things have been a bit weird.
Been wondering why I don't have close old friends. Thought about my past and Didn't think I was the type of "social butterfly" who was disloyal to people. Thought I invested in my friendships and let them know their needs were of of the highest priority to me, but I guess not enough. It's hurt for a while, like unrequited love.
It doesn't happen all at once either. Just one day you look around and realise that your old friends don't know who you are anymore and they don't really include you into important personal aspects of their lives anymore.
Seeing as I can't change what I don't recognise, I have to stop lamenting about the past. To try hurt less I'm gonna try care less about close friendships and conecting intimately with people.
Argh, this is going to be hard :P At least I'm getting along heaps well with quite a few people superficially at UNI. Help take my mind of it.
unfortunatley they keep mice *pew*
It's great managing my own living. For some reason I enjoy all the daily little tasks such as house cleaning, cooking, washing the dishes etc. It makes me feel more normal and less crazed/on-edge like I feel at home. Maybe it's related to the fact that I have my own physical space that I can feel clearer about my mental space.
I like living alone :)
I'm also attending an intensive UNI course that's been condensed from a semester into a week. It's music based so although it's tough at times, it's still heaps of fun.
Socially things have been a bit weird.
Been wondering why I don't have close old friends. Thought about my past and Didn't think I was the type of "social butterfly" who was disloyal to people. Thought I invested in my friendships and let them know their needs were of of the highest priority to me, but I guess not enough. It's hurt for a while, like unrequited love.
It doesn't happen all at once either. Just one day you look around and realise that your old friends don't know who you are anymore and they don't really include you into important personal aspects of their lives anymore.
Seeing as I can't change what I don't recognise, I have to stop lamenting about the past. To try hurt less I'm gonna try care less about close friendships and conecting intimately with people.
Argh, this is going to be hard :P At least I'm getting along heaps well with quite a few people superficially at UNI. Help take my mind of it.