where can I hide
In everyday life I am struggling to speak with people. It's becoming worse, but when I talk with people usually only one response comes to mind. When most people talk, they are able to choose what they say from a variety of thoughts and ideas. It makes me feel thick slow and stupid.
I do react and respond strongly internally to discussions and interactions I have with people, but it is in feelings and symbols. Abstract thought, not in linguistic terms.
Expression has gone down the toilet. I find myself saying stuff that totally doesn't make sense. This phenomena is worst when I HAVE to talk unspontaniously. Best and easiest example is teaching at the pool. I talk utter garbage and I can't keep my mouth closed to hide it.
Only with the CLOSEST friends I feel safe. Not even with family...
I do react and respond strongly internally to discussions and interactions I have with people, but it is in feelings and symbols. Abstract thought, not in linguistic terms.
Expression has gone down the toilet. I find myself saying stuff that totally doesn't make sense. This phenomena is worst when I HAVE to talk unspontaniously. Best and easiest example is teaching at the pool. I talk utter garbage and I can't keep my mouth closed to hide it.
Only with the CLOSEST friends I feel safe. Not even with family...