Oh Livejournal, I have forgotten you..
Last night I was at Greg's house in Dallas and for some reason I thought about liveournal. I got to reading, a lot with Greg actually. He is a great guy. In fact I do believe he put it best: Cute, dorky, & smart. I don't even know what to think now. I have to be honest, I'm a little caught off guard. But in a good way!
I mean, I just expected to like go to Dallas, hang out, maybe go to the bar, do a movie.. you know normal just hanging out stuff. But everything just happened. I can't even recall precisely how or when. He's absolutely amazing in every sense of the word. He makes me laugh. He makes me smile so much my teeth hurt.. and I'm being honest! They actually hurt lol.
The basic assessment is that we are quite compatible. This now makes things a little more complicated obviously. I mean he is the kinda guy that in 50 years I want to look back and be glad I had the audacity to back on a plane and pursue what ever it is.
It was unlike anything I have ever felt before. As if the whole time my body was drugged with an extreme dose of passion. I know that sounds weird but I honestly don't know how better to explain it. lol I actually joked with him about it, saying it was his pheromones. =P
Seriously though, can I just tell you how much of a great guy he was..
Shit! I'm infatuated with him! How can this be. Grr lol. Now I'm just gonna be torn the whole time between if I'm being foolish again and just falling for another guy. And this guy could be the best thing that has ever happened to me and I would like to see where it might go if it only has the chance.
I guess this is why they say love is so complicated. I want to allow myself to fall for him...
Yes, you did just read that. I did just type that, and I think I actually feel that right now.. But that's so fucked up! How can I feel this way about someone I just met. I mean I had a great time and all, but it's a little early to have feelings like this isn't it? I mean it reeks of immaturity and naivety.. doesn't it?
Or does it make me sound like some helpless romantic emo kid.
Now I feel so embarrassed that I'm admitting all of this..
So *breathes* back to reality.
O.k. It's true, I'm infatuated.. totally normal. I just need to come down get back to life, breathe.. a lot lol.. and then collect my rational thoughts again.
I'm just gonna say it, Gregory Scott Stevens is like heroine to me! I couldn't even be within a certain amount of space from him without having this insane urge to make-out with him. He has some like fucked up influence over me that just draws me helplessly in... Oh but I hopelessly want it to happen to.
Ahh.. O.k. I have to stop typing it's starting to sound rambled and awkward lol.
I mean, I just expected to like go to Dallas, hang out, maybe go to the bar, do a movie.. you know normal just hanging out stuff. But everything just happened. I can't even recall precisely how or when. He's absolutely amazing in every sense of the word. He makes me laugh. He makes me smile so much my teeth hurt.. and I'm being honest! They actually hurt lol.
The basic assessment is that we are quite compatible. This now makes things a little more complicated obviously. I mean he is the kinda guy that in 50 years I want to look back and be glad I had the audacity to back on a plane and pursue what ever it is.
It was unlike anything I have ever felt before. As if the whole time my body was drugged with an extreme dose of passion. I know that sounds weird but I honestly don't know how better to explain it. lol I actually joked with him about it, saying it was his pheromones. =P
Seriously though, can I just tell you how much of a great guy he was..
Shit! I'm infatuated with him! How can this be. Grr lol. Now I'm just gonna be torn the whole time between if I'm being foolish again and just falling for another guy. And this guy could be the best thing that has ever happened to me and I would like to see where it might go if it only has the chance.
I guess this is why they say love is so complicated. I want to allow myself to fall for him...
Yes, you did just read that. I did just type that, and I think I actually feel that right now.. But that's so fucked up! How can I feel this way about someone I just met. I mean I had a great time and all, but it's a little early to have feelings like this isn't it? I mean it reeks of immaturity and naivety.. doesn't it?
Or does it make me sound like some helpless romantic emo kid.
Now I feel so embarrassed that I'm admitting all of this..
So *breathes* back to reality.
O.k. It's true, I'm infatuated.. totally normal. I just need to come down get back to life, breathe.. a lot lol.. and then collect my rational thoughts again.
I'm just gonna say it, Gregory Scott Stevens is like heroine to me! I couldn't even be within a certain amount of space from him without having this insane urge to make-out with him. He has some like fucked up influence over me that just draws me helplessly in... Oh but I hopelessly want it to happen to.
Ahh.. O.k. I have to stop typing it's starting to sound rambled and awkward lol.