"Awakening of Love" a ChaeKi fanfic [chapter 23]
Title: "Awakening of Love"
Author: limanh
Rating: PG 12
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters...it's all fictional!...
Chapter 23
"No, we can't!" Chae Won said loudly and sat up straight on her bed. She disorientatedly opened her eyes and looked around her bedroom. Her heart was beating like crazy. She put a hand on her chest. Breathing in and out slowly she tried calming her heart down again. What was that right now? A bad dream or rather a foreshadowing of her future? She was...sad, that was not the future she wanted for herself or for him but what if it turned out exactly this way, the way she feared most and they were really siblings?
Today would be the day they would get the results of the DNA test. Of course, she couldn't resist his appeal. She knew it before and therefore was trying to sneak out when he was still sleeping. Actually, he was right! No matter where their fate led them it was better to have the results confirmed.
Was that the reason for her dream or was it an expression of the fear she had inside? Maybe…who knew? She looked at the nightstand at the o'clock. It was only 8am so she still had plenty of time to get ready meeting him later, him and her mother. They had an appointment at 10am at the hospital. So still enough time to go. Chae Won sighed. It was not easy persuading her mother to do the test. First she insisted that her words should be enough for them to believe her; she didn't have a reason to lie. Only when they both begged her wholeheartedly that she agreed reluctantly.
One and a half hours later she was all done, being freshly showered and ready to go. She was walking up and down in her living room for the last half an hour, too nervous to sit. She didn't leave earlier because she knew Joong Ki had an appointment with his doc at 9am. Finally it was time to leave. Breathing deeply in she opened the door. Due to the accident her company gave her some days off to take care of her injury. She was glad she didn't have to work, knowing that she wouldn't be able to concentrate on it anyway while they were waiting for the results. Joong Ki was still in the hospital but his condition got better with every passing day and if everything is okay he would be dismissed today, too. So maybe they will have two reasons to celebrate today? She prayed for this miracle. Chaebal!...
When Chae Won opened his hospital room after knocking at the door, he was still talking with the doc. She wanted to wait outside, afraid to disturb them, but the doc told her to come in.
"We're done! Mr. Song is ready to leave the hospital today. Of course, he still has to rest a lot and won't be able to work the next four weeks. We ask for your help to assist him, Miss!" he said and bowed before he left the room. Turning to him she smiled brightly, "These are good news! I'm sure you are sick of the hospital already though it's only a week ago."
"No need to mention, ne? I want some sushi and sake or rather soju asap," he answered mischieviously.
"Let me help packing your stuff," she offered, taking out his bag from the locker. He thanked her. Though he was dismissed now but with his left arm and leg in cast he was still handicapped.
"Are you planning to stay here or go back to Seoul? I can only stay with you for another week before I have to go back to work," she told him.
"Oh, I already talked to my agency here. They were okay to cancel my contract after I told them that I would be out of the game for at least a month, so I can go back with you," he answered, adding, " but only if you pamper me!"
"You wish! I will force you to do your exercises till you cry for your regular work," she threatened him, causing him to laugh. Both were glad they could tease each other despite knowing that they were only waiting for the result.
"I think you should move into my apartment during your recovery time so that I can take care of you," she suggested.
Deep inside Joong Ki breathed out relievedly. Her suggestion could only mean that she was still willing to see him no matter what the result was. "Your wish is my command!" he therefore answered.
Five minutes later someone knocked at the door. It was her mother who had prolonged her stay in Tokyo to witness the results personally. After they hugged and greeted each other, they left for their appointment with Joong Ki in the wheelchair, his bag on his lap. On their way they were not really exchanging a lot of words with everyone being nervous. In front of the doc's door they were told to wait cause he was still in a surgery. The wait seemed to last forever and not only 15 Minutes.
When Chae Won passed by him the xth time he grabbed her hand, forcing her to stop her endless walking-tour. With his eyes he asked her not to worry too much. Squeezing back his hand she thanked him without words for his concern. Looking in each others eyes they forgot the world around them for a while. Joong Ki slowly lifted her hand that he held in his and softly put it on his lips. Fondly he placed a kiss on the back of her hands. Their feelings for each other didn't need to be expressed by words...
"Mr. Song?" the doc asked, after he finally arrived, "Please, come with me!"
They all followed him in his office. Chae Won's heart was in her mouth, beating faster with every second the doc needed to take out the papers. She felt like watching a drama, everything seemed to be in slow motion. Unconsciously she sqeezed Joong Ki's shoulders, who was sitting in front of her.
"We made two tests with two different labs to made sure that no mistakes were made and both labs gave us the same result. The result is..." he stopped and looked expectantly at all three, causing her to moan impatiently, "...that both persons are not related to each other!"
Upon hearing it she couldn't help but shout out her relief while her eyes started to fill with tears. Her dream came true, no, their dream came true! While her mother was shaking the hand of the doc and thanking him for his help, Chae Won leaned forward and hugged Joong Ki from the back. She was laughing and crying at the same time. She could feel his trembling hand that he had put on hers. Quickly both of them also thanked the doc for his wonderful news. After her mother took the papers they left his office.
"Mom, why did you call oppa your "blood and flesh" when he isn't your son?" Chae Won asked the question she wanted to know the most when they were leaving the hospital. Looking at her her mother sighed heavily.
"I'm gonna tell you something that I kept by myself for long cause it still hurts me till today," she finally answered, "I never told you but I had a miscarriage two years before you were born. Since your father and me were wishing for a child desperately we were very happy when I finally got pregnant after a long time. So you can imagine my feelings when I lost my first child and we found out it was a boy. I got depressive and nearly lost my will to live. It was only when I got pregnant with you that I found my ray of hope. However, there was always a yearning in me for a son. Please, don't misunderstand me, I love you more than anything else, but still, there was always a feeling of lost in me. Till the day we met Joong Ki...the day he visited us and both of you came in the kitchen it felt...complete...as if the missing spot was finally filled. I remember I was very grateful and happy that day. No one was more contented than me when both of you became friends and were like siblings. When your feelings started to grow I was happy to have him at least as a son-in-law. The day the accident happened and he was at the risk of losing his life my old fears came back and I felt like losing...my son...a second time. I mixed up past and present..." She stopped to hold back her tears.
"Oh, mom, I never knew!" Chae Won whispered, taking her mom in tight embrace. It hurt her to know that her mother had such a deep scar in her soul. Her mother had always been a controlled and rather cheerful person. It must have been really painfull if she was still affected by it till today and never talked about it.
"Mom, though I'm not your son by blood, please know that I couldn't love you more if you were my real mother. You and dad gave me my biggest gift in life and solely for that I could never love you enough in my whole life," Joong Ki said calmly, opening his arms for both women to come in his embrace. Together all three smiled and cried at the same time. Afterwards they all felt better.
They dropped her mother at her hotel. Later they would have dinner together. Then they asked the cab driver to bring them to Joong Ki's apartment. During the drive she told him that she was only sad that they still didn't know his real mother. He assured her that he was fine as long as she was not his sister. He would charge a detective to look for his mother once they would be back in Seoul. She was glad that he was able to handle this fact calmly. Chae Won knew he must be tired though he was not complaining. However, his pale complexion was telling her otherwise. So she helped him in the armchair, ordering him to rest while she was going to put his bag away. Then she told him to take a nap while she would get something to eat cause his fridge was empty. Chae Won remembered his words that he wanted some sushi and sake so she ordered some from the sushi bar she was with him on the day she arrived here in Tokyo. That day seemed to be far far away, so much had happened in that short period of time. She'd been to heaven and hell. However, the most important thing was that she finally found her home.
When she came home he was sleeping soundly. After putting the food in the kitchen she carefully put a blanket over his shoulders. Knowing him, he must spend half of the night worrying about their future. So his body now took its toll. Looking at his peaceful face she smiled tenderly. It tingled her fingers to touch him but she was afraid to wake him up. It simply felt celestial to know that she was allowed to touch him, without guilty conscience. Sitting down on the arm rest she folded her arms, being satisfied simply looking at the sleeping man.
"He is so good looking! And he is mine!" she thought and had to giggle about her own possessive thought.
Suddenly he grabbed her. With a swift move he pulled her on his lap, taking her by surprise.
"What's to giggle at while looking at me?" he asked her mischieviously.
"Oh, you didn't sleep?" she asked back.
"How can I sleep when such a beautiful girl is looking at me? So why did you giggle?" he wanted to know.
"That's my secret! But am I not hurting you while sitting here?" she was worried.
"No! This is the place I wanted you to be for so long so how can it hurt me?" he answered.
Upon hearing his words she carefully nestled up against his shoulder. Smiling happily she closed her eyes.
"Wait!" he said and put the blanket around both of them, "Now try to sleep a little, too! I know, like me you didn't get a lot of sleep. Now we don't have to hurry anymore. After the nap we still can talk as much as we want to." She nooded.
When she was about to fall asleep she heard him whispering, "Is it a dream? Do I really have you in my arms right now without feeling any guilt? Is our journey really over after all these years?" He carefully wrapped his non-injured arm closer around her, sighing happily. Two seconds later she could feel how he gave her a soft kiss on her temple. Feeling his tenderness and love she couldn't help but tear up. Through the closed eyes they escaped, running down her face. She tried not to sob. However, there was no escaping from his notice once the tears touched his skin.
"What's the matter, Moonie? Did I say something wrong?" he asked worriedly. He put a finger on her chin and softly lifted her head till their gazes met. Seeing the love in his eyes made her tear up even more. Without a word she was only able to shake her head.
"Please don't cry!" he begged her. With his thumb he wipped her tears away. Then he tenderly stroke along her cheek.
Slowly he neared her lips. Closing the eyes she waited for the touch of his lips. First he kissed her forehead, followed by both eyes. She sighed contendedly. She would feel his lips on hers every second. Instead she heard him chuckling. Bemused she opened her eyes only to see him grinning widely at her.
"Why are you grinning?" she wondered.
"Because of you! I'm just amused that it's so easy to appease you," he answered.
"It's only because those are not tears of sadness or anger but happiness," she said and pretended to get up from his lap.
"Hey, wait! Where are you going?" he protested and tried to hold her back.
"Since you are not kissing me anymore I thought I should get us something to eat instead," she acted cool.
"Who said I wouldn't? I was only pausing for several seconds," he protested.
"So what if I don't want to be kissed anymore?" "You wanna bet?" "Sure!"
When his lips finally met hers she forced herself not to react to it. Clenching her fists she remained seemingly unmoved. It was a battle against him and her heart. When she was about to give in he lifted his head.
"So you don't like me anymore?" he pouted. With his puppy eyes he looked sadly at her.
"No, it's just that I'm hungry now," she smirked. It was really difficult to resist his charm.
"I'm hungry, too, but for your kiss!" he begged.
"Okay, then it's my turn to kiss you...buuuut...you are not allowed to move an inch!" she required.
Of course he was more than willing to follow her demand. Nodding he agreed. Finally! Finally, she could do as pleased!
"Remember, you can't react or I stop immediately!" she urged a last time. "I promise!"
Sitting up she first smiled seductively at him. While not letting go of his eyes she slowly licked her lips. Joong Ki gulped. With her right hand she opened the first two buttons of her blouse. His eyes got wider and he started to breath faster. She knew that he was only expecting a kiss but not her to act that way. She grinned, having a lot of fun torturing him. It was a nice revange for his teasing her! With her right hand she slowly bared her left shoulder.
When he started to move uneasily she looked sternly at him. He stopped his movement immediately, knowing that otherwise she would stop her game at once. It was the first time she showed this side to him so even if he would die from passion he would withstand it. It was the sweetest torture he ever got in his life. It was heaven and hell at the same time! Didn't she know how dangerous it was to tempt a thirsty man that much? No, by the look at her face she was only enjoying to torture him without thinking of the aftermath. He was curious what her next moves were and how long he really would be able to endure it.
Meanwhile, Chae Won was thinking of her next moves. Though it started as a game but the seduction, of course, didn't leave her untouched. A fever started to burn inside of her, too. So she opened a button of his shirt. Slowly she neared him. Placing both hands on his chest she could feel his wild throbbing heart. Licking her lips a last time she placed a kiss on his collarbone. He gulped. She couldn't resist to go up his throat with her tongue.
"Moonie, please!" he groaned, close to breaking his promise. Instead she put her lips on his. Wrapping both arms around his neck she deepened the kiss. That was what he was waiting for! Pulling her as close as possible he demanded entrance in her mouth. Hungrily he took over the control of the "game"...
Author: limanh
Rating: PG 12
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters...it's all fictional!...
Chapter 23
"No, we can't!" Chae Won said loudly and sat up straight on her bed. She disorientatedly opened her eyes and looked around her bedroom. Her heart was beating like crazy. She put a hand on her chest. Breathing in and out slowly she tried calming her heart down again. What was that right now? A bad dream or rather a foreshadowing of her future? She was...sad, that was not the future she wanted for herself or for him but what if it turned out exactly this way, the way she feared most and they were really siblings?
Today would be the day they would get the results of the DNA test. Of course, she couldn't resist his appeal. She knew it before and therefore was trying to sneak out when he was still sleeping. Actually, he was right! No matter where their fate led them it was better to have the results confirmed.
Was that the reason for her dream or was it an expression of the fear she had inside? Maybe…who knew? She looked at the nightstand at the o'clock. It was only 8am so she still had plenty of time to get ready meeting him later, him and her mother. They had an appointment at 10am at the hospital. So still enough time to go. Chae Won sighed. It was not easy persuading her mother to do the test. First she insisted that her words should be enough for them to believe her; she didn't have a reason to lie. Only when they both begged her wholeheartedly that she agreed reluctantly.
One and a half hours later she was all done, being freshly showered and ready to go. She was walking up and down in her living room for the last half an hour, too nervous to sit. She didn't leave earlier because she knew Joong Ki had an appointment with his doc at 9am. Finally it was time to leave. Breathing deeply in she opened the door. Due to the accident her company gave her some days off to take care of her injury. She was glad she didn't have to work, knowing that she wouldn't be able to concentrate on it anyway while they were waiting for the results. Joong Ki was still in the hospital but his condition got better with every passing day and if everything is okay he would be dismissed today, too. So maybe they will have two reasons to celebrate today? She prayed for this miracle. Chaebal!...
When Chae Won opened his hospital room after knocking at the door, he was still talking with the doc. She wanted to wait outside, afraid to disturb them, but the doc told her to come in.
"We're done! Mr. Song is ready to leave the hospital today. Of course, he still has to rest a lot and won't be able to work the next four weeks. We ask for your help to assist him, Miss!" he said and bowed before he left the room. Turning to him she smiled brightly, "These are good news! I'm sure you are sick of the hospital already though it's only a week ago."
"No need to mention, ne? I want some sushi and sake or rather soju asap," he answered mischieviously.
"Let me help packing your stuff," she offered, taking out his bag from the locker. He thanked her. Though he was dismissed now but with his left arm and leg in cast he was still handicapped.
"Are you planning to stay here or go back to Seoul? I can only stay with you for another week before I have to go back to work," she told him.
"Oh, I already talked to my agency here. They were okay to cancel my contract after I told them that I would be out of the game for at least a month, so I can go back with you," he answered, adding, " but only if you pamper me!"
"You wish! I will force you to do your exercises till you cry for your regular work," she threatened him, causing him to laugh. Both were glad they could tease each other despite knowing that they were only waiting for the result.
"I think you should move into my apartment during your recovery time so that I can take care of you," she suggested.
Deep inside Joong Ki breathed out relievedly. Her suggestion could only mean that she was still willing to see him no matter what the result was. "Your wish is my command!" he therefore answered.
Five minutes later someone knocked at the door. It was her mother who had prolonged her stay in Tokyo to witness the results personally. After they hugged and greeted each other, they left for their appointment with Joong Ki in the wheelchair, his bag on his lap. On their way they were not really exchanging a lot of words with everyone being nervous. In front of the doc's door they were told to wait cause he was still in a surgery. The wait seemed to last forever and not only 15 Minutes.
When Chae Won passed by him the xth time he grabbed her hand, forcing her to stop her endless walking-tour. With his eyes he asked her not to worry too much. Squeezing back his hand she thanked him without words for his concern. Looking in each others eyes they forgot the world around them for a while. Joong Ki slowly lifted her hand that he held in his and softly put it on his lips. Fondly he placed a kiss on the back of her hands. Their feelings for each other didn't need to be expressed by words...
"Mr. Song?" the doc asked, after he finally arrived, "Please, come with me!"
They all followed him in his office. Chae Won's heart was in her mouth, beating faster with every second the doc needed to take out the papers. She felt like watching a drama, everything seemed to be in slow motion. Unconsciously she sqeezed Joong Ki's shoulders, who was sitting in front of her.
"We made two tests with two different labs to made sure that no mistakes were made and both labs gave us the same result. The result is..." he stopped and looked expectantly at all three, causing her to moan impatiently, "...that both persons are not related to each other!"
Upon hearing it she couldn't help but shout out her relief while her eyes started to fill with tears. Her dream came true, no, their dream came true! While her mother was shaking the hand of the doc and thanking him for his help, Chae Won leaned forward and hugged Joong Ki from the back. She was laughing and crying at the same time. She could feel his trembling hand that he had put on hers. Quickly both of them also thanked the doc for his wonderful news. After her mother took the papers they left his office.
"Mom, why did you call oppa your "blood and flesh" when he isn't your son?" Chae Won asked the question she wanted to know the most when they were leaving the hospital. Looking at her her mother sighed heavily.
"I'm gonna tell you something that I kept by myself for long cause it still hurts me till today," she finally answered, "I never told you but I had a miscarriage two years before you were born. Since your father and me were wishing for a child desperately we were very happy when I finally got pregnant after a long time. So you can imagine my feelings when I lost my first child and we found out it was a boy. I got depressive and nearly lost my will to live. It was only when I got pregnant with you that I found my ray of hope. However, there was always a yearning in me for a son. Please, don't misunderstand me, I love you more than anything else, but still, there was always a feeling of lost in me. Till the day we met Joong Ki...the day he visited us and both of you came in the kitchen it felt...complete...as if the missing spot was finally filled. I remember I was very grateful and happy that day. No one was more contented than me when both of you became friends and were like siblings. When your feelings started to grow I was happy to have him at least as a son-in-law. The day the accident happened and he was at the risk of losing his life my old fears came back and I felt like losing...my son...a second time. I mixed up past and present..." She stopped to hold back her tears.
"Oh, mom, I never knew!" Chae Won whispered, taking her mom in tight embrace. It hurt her to know that her mother had such a deep scar in her soul. Her mother had always been a controlled and rather cheerful person. It must have been really painfull if she was still affected by it till today and never talked about it.
"Mom, though I'm not your son by blood, please know that I couldn't love you more if you were my real mother. You and dad gave me my biggest gift in life and solely for that I could never love you enough in my whole life," Joong Ki said calmly, opening his arms for both women to come in his embrace. Together all three smiled and cried at the same time. Afterwards they all felt better.
They dropped her mother at her hotel. Later they would have dinner together. Then they asked the cab driver to bring them to Joong Ki's apartment. During the drive she told him that she was only sad that they still didn't know his real mother. He assured her that he was fine as long as she was not his sister. He would charge a detective to look for his mother once they would be back in Seoul. She was glad that he was able to handle this fact calmly. Chae Won knew he must be tired though he was not complaining. However, his pale complexion was telling her otherwise. So she helped him in the armchair, ordering him to rest while she was going to put his bag away. Then she told him to take a nap while she would get something to eat cause his fridge was empty. Chae Won remembered his words that he wanted some sushi and sake so she ordered some from the sushi bar she was with him on the day she arrived here in Tokyo. That day seemed to be far far away, so much had happened in that short period of time. She'd been to heaven and hell. However, the most important thing was that she finally found her home.
When she came home he was sleeping soundly. After putting the food in the kitchen she carefully put a blanket over his shoulders. Knowing him, he must spend half of the night worrying about their future. So his body now took its toll. Looking at his peaceful face she smiled tenderly. It tingled her fingers to touch him but she was afraid to wake him up. It simply felt celestial to know that she was allowed to touch him, without guilty conscience. Sitting down on the arm rest she folded her arms, being satisfied simply looking at the sleeping man.
"He is so good looking! And he is mine!" she thought and had to giggle about her own possessive thought.
Suddenly he grabbed her. With a swift move he pulled her on his lap, taking her by surprise.
"What's to giggle at while looking at me?" he asked her mischieviously.
"Oh, you didn't sleep?" she asked back.
"How can I sleep when such a beautiful girl is looking at me? So why did you giggle?" he wanted to know.
"That's my secret! But am I not hurting you while sitting here?" she was worried.
"No! This is the place I wanted you to be for so long so how can it hurt me?" he answered.
Upon hearing his words she carefully nestled up against his shoulder. Smiling happily she closed her eyes.
"Wait!" he said and put the blanket around both of them, "Now try to sleep a little, too! I know, like me you didn't get a lot of sleep. Now we don't have to hurry anymore. After the nap we still can talk as much as we want to." She nooded.
When she was about to fall asleep she heard him whispering, "Is it a dream? Do I really have you in my arms right now without feeling any guilt? Is our journey really over after all these years?" He carefully wrapped his non-injured arm closer around her, sighing happily. Two seconds later she could feel how he gave her a soft kiss on her temple. Feeling his tenderness and love she couldn't help but tear up. Through the closed eyes they escaped, running down her face. She tried not to sob. However, there was no escaping from his notice once the tears touched his skin.
"What's the matter, Moonie? Did I say something wrong?" he asked worriedly. He put a finger on her chin and softly lifted her head till their gazes met. Seeing the love in his eyes made her tear up even more. Without a word she was only able to shake her head.
"Please don't cry!" he begged her. With his thumb he wipped her tears away. Then he tenderly stroke along her cheek.
Slowly he neared her lips. Closing the eyes she waited for the touch of his lips. First he kissed her forehead, followed by both eyes. She sighed contendedly. She would feel his lips on hers every second. Instead she heard him chuckling. Bemused she opened her eyes only to see him grinning widely at her.
"Why are you grinning?" she wondered.
"Because of you! I'm just amused that it's so easy to appease you," he answered.
"It's only because those are not tears of sadness or anger but happiness," she said and pretended to get up from his lap.
"Hey, wait! Where are you going?" he protested and tried to hold her back.
"Since you are not kissing me anymore I thought I should get us something to eat instead," she acted cool.
"Who said I wouldn't? I was only pausing for several seconds," he protested.
"So what if I don't want to be kissed anymore?" "You wanna bet?" "Sure!"
When his lips finally met hers she forced herself not to react to it. Clenching her fists she remained seemingly unmoved. It was a battle against him and her heart. When she was about to give in he lifted his head.
"So you don't like me anymore?" he pouted. With his puppy eyes he looked sadly at her.
"No, it's just that I'm hungry now," she smirked. It was really difficult to resist his charm.
"I'm hungry, too, but for your kiss!" he begged.
"Okay, then it's my turn to kiss you...buuuut...you are not allowed to move an inch!" she required.
Of course he was more than willing to follow her demand. Nodding he agreed. Finally! Finally, she could do as pleased!
"Remember, you can't react or I stop immediately!" she urged a last time. "I promise!"
Sitting up she first smiled seductively at him. While not letting go of his eyes she slowly licked her lips. Joong Ki gulped. With her right hand she opened the first two buttons of her blouse. His eyes got wider and he started to breath faster. She knew that he was only expecting a kiss but not her to act that way. She grinned, having a lot of fun torturing him. It was a nice revange for his teasing her! With her right hand she slowly bared her left shoulder.
When he started to move uneasily she looked sternly at him. He stopped his movement immediately, knowing that otherwise she would stop her game at once. It was the first time she showed this side to him so even if he would die from passion he would withstand it. It was the sweetest torture he ever got in his life. It was heaven and hell at the same time! Didn't she know how dangerous it was to tempt a thirsty man that much? No, by the look at her face she was only enjoying to torture him without thinking of the aftermath. He was curious what her next moves were and how long he really would be able to endure it.
Meanwhile, Chae Won was thinking of her next moves. Though it started as a game but the seduction, of course, didn't leave her untouched. A fever started to burn inside of her, too. So she opened a button of his shirt. Slowly she neared him. Placing both hands on his chest she could feel his wild throbbing heart. Licking her lips a last time she placed a kiss on his collarbone. He gulped. She couldn't resist to go up his throat with her tongue.
"Moonie, please!" he groaned, close to breaking his promise. Instead she put her lips on his. Wrapping both arms around his neck she deepened the kiss. That was what he was waiting for! Pulling her as close as possible he demanded entrance in her mouth. Hungrily he took over the control of the "game"...