[fic] Something about waiting - Ruki/Reita - 2
Title: Something about waiting
Chapters: 2/?
Author: limaccia_san
Genre: fluff, humour, romance, slight angst
Warnings: slight straightness XD
Rating: pg-13
Band: the GazettE
Pairings: Ruki/Reita, slight Tsukasa[D’espairs ray]/Reita (past)
Disclaimer: not own Ruki’s cuteness, neither Reita’s missing nose U_U
Synopsis: He smiled at the memories of an enraged Ruki wrestling him on the floor when he refused to watch the movie he picked up for them few weeks ago.
…
He just hoped that there’ll be other moment like that with him in the future.
Summary: After a sudden encounter with an old flame Reita gets the opportunity to finally have the person he has always been in love with.
Comments: at the bottom
Ruki came back home is a comatose state, his mind occupied with the morning events.
He was rather sure to be straight, he had had a lot of women, so.. WTH did he kiss a guy?? A great friend of his nonetheless.
He cared deeply about Reita, maybe more deeply than a normal friend’d do. He liked the relationship they had. Reita spoiled him with his company, always being there when he wanted him to be, doing the things he liked the most, having so much fun together.
There was a period that he was distant, he had a boyfriend and he rarely spent any time with him. It was sad like that, being avoided and all, but he thought that maybe Reita needed his space with his lover so he didn’t say anything, even if he felt terribly betrayed, not being involved anymore in the other’s life. But Reita eventually came back time later as his usual self and they grew closer and closer. Without even noticing he grew fond of the bassist, enjoying his company and not wanting to grew apart ever again.
But.. why did he feel like that when they met that guy? Somehow he felt threatened by him.
Was it possible that his simple, friendly affection slowly turned into a deeper feeling for his beloved friend? Even if he was a man??
Surely sometimes he thought about other men as attractive, but being in love with them was definitely another kettle of fish, not to mention that he wasn’t really used to that kind of business between men (and just the idea that this’d deprive him of the full control of the situation made him feel nervous). Maybe it was just Reita?
Either ways he had a problem and now he had to find a solution. He didn’t want to keep Reita guessing too much, it wasn’t fair for them both. And.. the thing Reita dais before leaving:
“Don’t hurt me”
He sounded so sad, like he knew perfectly how was it to be hurt by him that way. But… did that mean that he already hurt him once? Without even noticing? Was it possible? Maybe… maybe that guy was the key… if just he’d put every pieces of memory in the right place..
Reita was distant back then for months he wouldn’t talk to him and he often avoided him, not wanting not hang out anymore like they used to. Then someday he became nicer to him and it was when he heard about this Tsukasa guy. They were still distant, Reita kept this strangely formal behaviour toward him ad he remembered how all that situation felt painful. He went clubbing a lot those days, to ease his frustration, but having one or two girls at times just made the situation get worse: however intense and satisfying his nights were, in the morning, when he entered the practice room and he saw the bassist he’d feel his heart ache, as it was stabbed deeply, at his: “Good morning Ruki kun”.
No hugs, no slaps on the shoulder, no coffee for him, no bright smiles, no rambles about the last movie he saw, no jokes about how Aoi behave like an embarrassed schoolgirl when Uruha is around, nothing.. Reita didn’t give Ruki anything anymore, just a fucking greeting. He couldn’t stand all of that, he was always frowning and jumpy and tense and stressed and.. and so sad and lonely.
So maybe he was referring to that. It had to be something big that he had done to deserve that treatment.
“Don’t hurt me”
So he really did it. He felt terrible at the thought . maybe that was the reason why he was distant while being with Tsukasa .. thinking about it carefully he was sure that Uruha and other friends hang out with Reita and Tsukasa back then. He instead saw the guy just few times, almost by chance.
He definitely wanted some answers from the bassist, even if.. right now the most important questions that needed a solution were others:
Did he want to be with Reita? Be his boyfriend, have that kind of relationship? Was he ready for that?
Sure as hell he liked Reita’s warmth, loved to be in his arms and hug back, loved the feeling he gave him as they kissed and the taste he left on his lips. He loved the way he looked at him, as he was the most precious thing on Earth.
He blushed at his thoughts.
Was he really in love with Reita?? No, he was sure it wasn’t love what he felt. Not yet at least. But what he felt, as strong as it was, couldn’t be ignored. And, truthfully he didn’t even want to.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
[Reita POV]
“FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK WHY NOW????? Why? Why not ever!!!! Fuck.. what if he’ll say that it was a mistake? What if we’ll grow apart again? I don’t have Tsukasa anymore to help me out, and I don’t think I’ll handle another heartbreak. I wish all of this’d never happened, everyone’d be so much happier: Tsukasa, Ruki, me!! What now? WHAT NOW???
Ok, ok calm down dude.. you can’t spent the time freaking out.. who knows when Ruki will be ready to tell me something .. wait, wait.. I won’t see him tomorrow, then it’d be week end, so I’ll see him in Monday at practise.. well, not seeing him will help, I think. Still.. no Ruki for tree days D: I’ll miss the little chibi çΔç NO, NO!!! What the hell am I saying D:< !?!?! I’d worry myself about not seeing him AT ALL from now on, because of this mess!! Kami sama I’m so fucked up. I just hope he’ll still want to be friend.. he started all of this after all, I was perfectly content with the way things were!! Even if that means me not having him as mine, neither touching him, nor kissing, hugging, cuddling him, not to mention not sharing my life with him ad be the most important person in his life.
I still can love him though.
But now that I had a taste of him.. a powerful, sweet, memorable taste it’ll be hell to forget all of this and just love him silently.
Reita sighed deeply, a well known, but by now forgotten sadness felt heavy on his heart. He wished he had accept Tsukasa’s invite now, just to keep his mind away from his troubled love.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Friday passed by quickly. Reita and Kai’s interview was tedious and their afternoon photoshoot long, but Reita was happily concentrated on what he was doing (much to Kai’s delight) as long as that kept his mind occupied. When he came back home that night he was so tired that he fall asleep after just few minutes of watching TV.
Saturday was pure hell!!
He got up late and was all out of whack. He spent the day wandering around the house, picking up his bass and putting it away the next second, throwing himself on the bed. Getting up again, doing some zapping, unable to concentrated on anything. Frustrated as hell he called Uruha who, sadly had something to do already, but they agreed on meeting the next morning and hang out for a video game tournament at Uruha’s place.
Even if Reita ended the call minutes ago he was stuck in the middle of the living room, starring at the cordless in his hand. He had this burning need to call a chibi friend of his.
Usually Ruki and he’d spent the weekend together, if they hadn’t any date (or more like if Ruki hadn’t any). It felt so lonely without the noisy, funny little thing.
He smiled at the memories of an enraged Ruki wrestling him on the floor when he refused to watch the movie he picked up for them few weeks ago.
He put the phone down.
There was no way in the World that he’d call him. Ruki needed his space right now, and if he wanted him to take a final decision, without influencing him, it was better to wait for him and his answer. He just hoped that there’ll be other moment like that with him in the future.
He turned lights and TV off and went to bed, suddenly feeling really tired.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
“Thank you Takashima and don’t be sad, it’s not your fault if I’m the PS king” Reita modestly said.
Uruha’s door was grumpily slammed shut on his face.
“Come oooooon, I’ll give you the opportunity to redeem yourself next time” he shouted amused to the closed door, trying to hide his laugh.
“YOU CAN BET IT!!!” Uruha yanked the door open and yelled dramatically, pointing a threatening finger at him “and I’ll beat your gay ass up so badly that you’ll beg for mercy”
Reita just looked at him raising an eyebrow and still trying to hold his laughter back.
But he eventually burst as Uruha’s mood change suddenly and he chirped an happy: “I’ll see ya tomorrow at practise, then” waving at him.
Reita giggled some more, shaking his head at his friend.
It was late afternoon and the weather was quite nice, so Reita decided to walk back home, instead of taking the train. He took his time, slowly advancing along the sidewalk, repeating to himself once again that, about Ruki’s business, he couldn’t do anything else than wait and let everything happen, then he’d face whatever consequence there’ll be.
But when he reached his apartment he found something he really wasn’t ready for.
There was Ruki, curled up like a kitten against his door soundly asleep.
He smiled at the super cute view and silently stepped nearer, kneeling down to admire better the gorgeous sleeping feature.
He reached forward and brushed some brown locks away from his face. He cupped his chubby, warm cheek and softly stroked it with his thumb, noticing with a smile how Ruki seemed to unconsciously lean in his touch while sleeping. He wanted to kiss that warm, tender skin so badly, but he was afraid to be caught, so he bitterly let his hand slide away from his cheek and lay on his shoulder. He squeezed it, softly calling the other’s name.
He watched Ruki squeeze his eyes, before slowly opening them and fix his gaze on Reita.
“Did I fell asleep here??” Ruki asked incredulous, his voice sleepy.
Reita chuckled at the other’s confused face: “Yup.. why didn’t you go inside?”
“Huh? Oh.. hum.. I was kinda in hurry, and.. well I forgot the keys” he explained, as he remembered the way he rushed out of his apartment and arrive there, breathless, fining no one at home.
“You’d call me, you know” Reita said gently.
“I.. I didn’t know what to say” Ruki muttered embarrassed, lowering his head.
“And now? Do you know what to say?” Reita asked quietly after few moments of silence.
“Yes” Ruki lift his head and replied firmly, staring the other’s eyes, his own full of determination.
Notes ♪:
I’m sorry if the first part, the one with Ruki’s thoughts, is a bit confusing. I wanted to describe his chaotic thoughts, so the “what a mess” aura was kinda wanted. Probably you feel confused just like him right now, but everything is going to be explained in the next chap u_u.
This chap was a bitch to write è_é and I’m not fully satisfied, but this had to be done *shrugs*.
Well, hope you liked ^____^
*waves*
Chapters: 2/?
Author: limaccia_san
Genre: fluff, humour, romance, slight angst
Warnings: slight straightness XD
Rating: pg-13
Band: the GazettE
Pairings: Ruki/Reita, slight Tsukasa[D’espairs ray]/Reita (past)
Disclaimer: not own Ruki’s cuteness, neither Reita’s missing nose U_U
Synopsis: He smiled at the memories of an enraged Ruki wrestling him on the floor when he refused to watch the movie he picked up for them few weeks ago.
…
He just hoped that there’ll be other moment like that with him in the future.
Summary: After a sudden encounter with an old flame Reita gets the opportunity to finally have the person he has always been in love with.
Comments: at the bottom
Ruki came back home is a comatose state, his mind occupied with the morning events.
He was rather sure to be straight, he had had a lot of women, so.. WTH did he kiss a guy?? A great friend of his nonetheless.
He cared deeply about Reita, maybe more deeply than a normal friend’d do. He liked the relationship they had. Reita spoiled him with his company, always being there when he wanted him to be, doing the things he liked the most, having so much fun together.
There was a period that he was distant, he had a boyfriend and he rarely spent any time with him. It was sad like that, being avoided and all, but he thought that maybe Reita needed his space with his lover so he didn’t say anything, even if he felt terribly betrayed, not being involved anymore in the other’s life. But Reita eventually came back time later as his usual self and they grew closer and closer. Without even noticing he grew fond of the bassist, enjoying his company and not wanting to grew apart ever again.
But.. why did he feel like that when they met that guy? Somehow he felt threatened by him.
Was it possible that his simple, friendly affection slowly turned into a deeper feeling for his beloved friend? Even if he was a man??
Surely sometimes he thought about other men as attractive, but being in love with them was definitely another kettle of fish, not to mention that he wasn’t really used to that kind of business between men (and just the idea that this’d deprive him of the full control of the situation made him feel nervous). Maybe it was just Reita?
Either ways he had a problem and now he had to find a solution. He didn’t want to keep Reita guessing too much, it wasn’t fair for them both. And.. the thing Reita dais before leaving:
“Don’t hurt me”
He sounded so sad, like he knew perfectly how was it to be hurt by him that way. But… did that mean that he already hurt him once? Without even noticing? Was it possible? Maybe… maybe that guy was the key… if just he’d put every pieces of memory in the right place..
Reita was distant back then for months he wouldn’t talk to him and he often avoided him, not wanting not hang out anymore like they used to. Then someday he became nicer to him and it was when he heard about this Tsukasa guy. They were still distant, Reita kept this strangely formal behaviour toward him ad he remembered how all that situation felt painful. He went clubbing a lot those days, to ease his frustration, but having one or two girls at times just made the situation get worse: however intense and satisfying his nights were, in the morning, when he entered the practice room and he saw the bassist he’d feel his heart ache, as it was stabbed deeply, at his: “Good morning Ruki kun”.
No hugs, no slaps on the shoulder, no coffee for him, no bright smiles, no rambles about the last movie he saw, no jokes about how Aoi behave like an embarrassed schoolgirl when Uruha is around, nothing.. Reita didn’t give Ruki anything anymore, just a fucking greeting. He couldn’t stand all of that, he was always frowning and jumpy and tense and stressed and.. and so sad and lonely.
So maybe he was referring to that. It had to be something big that he had done to deserve that treatment.
“Don’t hurt me”
So he really did it. He felt terrible at the thought . maybe that was the reason why he was distant while being with Tsukasa .. thinking about it carefully he was sure that Uruha and other friends hang out with Reita and Tsukasa back then. He instead saw the guy just few times, almost by chance.
He definitely wanted some answers from the bassist, even if.. right now the most important questions that needed a solution were others:
Did he want to be with Reita? Be his boyfriend, have that kind of relationship? Was he ready for that?
Sure as hell he liked Reita’s warmth, loved to be in his arms and hug back, loved the feeling he gave him as they kissed and the taste he left on his lips. He loved the way he looked at him, as he was the most precious thing on Earth.
He blushed at his thoughts.
Was he really in love with Reita?? No, he was sure it wasn’t love what he felt. Not yet at least. But what he felt, as strong as it was, couldn’t be ignored. And, truthfully he didn’t even want to.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
[Reita POV]
“FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK WHY NOW????? Why? Why not ever!!!! Fuck.. what if he’ll say that it was a mistake? What if we’ll grow apart again? I don’t have Tsukasa anymore to help me out, and I don’t think I’ll handle another heartbreak. I wish all of this’d never happened, everyone’d be so much happier: Tsukasa, Ruki, me!! What now? WHAT NOW???
Ok, ok calm down dude.. you can’t spent the time freaking out.. who knows when Ruki will be ready to tell me something .. wait, wait.. I won’t see him tomorrow, then it’d be week end, so I’ll see him in Monday at practise.. well, not seeing him will help, I think. Still.. no Ruki for tree days D: I’ll miss the little chibi çΔç NO, NO!!! What the hell am I saying D:< !?!?! I’d worry myself about not seeing him AT ALL from now on, because of this mess!! Kami sama I’m so fucked up. I just hope he’ll still want to be friend.. he started all of this after all, I was perfectly content with the way things were!! Even if that means me not having him as mine, neither touching him, nor kissing, hugging, cuddling him, not to mention not sharing my life with him ad be the most important person in his life.
I still can love him though.
But now that I had a taste of him.. a powerful, sweet, memorable taste it’ll be hell to forget all of this and just love him silently.
Reita sighed deeply, a well known, but by now forgotten sadness felt heavy on his heart. He wished he had accept Tsukasa’s invite now, just to keep his mind away from his troubled love.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Friday passed by quickly. Reita and Kai’s interview was tedious and their afternoon photoshoot long, but Reita was happily concentrated on what he was doing (much to Kai’s delight) as long as that kept his mind occupied. When he came back home that night he was so tired that he fall asleep after just few minutes of watching TV.
Saturday was pure hell!!
He got up late and was all out of whack. He spent the day wandering around the house, picking up his bass and putting it away the next second, throwing himself on the bed. Getting up again, doing some zapping, unable to concentrated on anything. Frustrated as hell he called Uruha who, sadly had something to do already, but they agreed on meeting the next morning and hang out for a video game tournament at Uruha’s place.
Even if Reita ended the call minutes ago he was stuck in the middle of the living room, starring at the cordless in his hand. He had this burning need to call a chibi friend of his.
Usually Ruki and he’d spent the weekend together, if they hadn’t any date (or more like if Ruki hadn’t any). It felt so lonely without the noisy, funny little thing.
He smiled at the memories of an enraged Ruki wrestling him on the floor when he refused to watch the movie he picked up for them few weeks ago.
He put the phone down.
There was no way in the World that he’d call him. Ruki needed his space right now, and if he wanted him to take a final decision, without influencing him, it was better to wait for him and his answer. He just hoped that there’ll be other moment like that with him in the future.
He turned lights and TV off and went to bed, suddenly feeling really tired.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
“Thank you Takashima and don’t be sad, it’s not your fault if I’m the PS king” Reita modestly said.
Uruha’s door was grumpily slammed shut on his face.
“Come oooooon, I’ll give you the opportunity to redeem yourself next time” he shouted amused to the closed door, trying to hide his laugh.
“YOU CAN BET IT!!!” Uruha yanked the door open and yelled dramatically, pointing a threatening finger at him “and I’ll beat your gay ass up so badly that you’ll beg for mercy”
Reita just looked at him raising an eyebrow and still trying to hold his laughter back.
But he eventually burst as Uruha’s mood change suddenly and he chirped an happy: “I’ll see ya tomorrow at practise, then” waving at him.
Reita giggled some more, shaking his head at his friend.
It was late afternoon and the weather was quite nice, so Reita decided to walk back home, instead of taking the train. He took his time, slowly advancing along the sidewalk, repeating to himself once again that, about Ruki’s business, he couldn’t do anything else than wait and let everything happen, then he’d face whatever consequence there’ll be.
But when he reached his apartment he found something he really wasn’t ready for.
There was Ruki, curled up like a kitten against his door soundly asleep.
He smiled at the super cute view and silently stepped nearer, kneeling down to admire better the gorgeous sleeping feature.
He reached forward and brushed some brown locks away from his face. He cupped his chubby, warm cheek and softly stroked it with his thumb, noticing with a smile how Ruki seemed to unconsciously lean in his touch while sleeping. He wanted to kiss that warm, tender skin so badly, but he was afraid to be caught, so he bitterly let his hand slide away from his cheek and lay on his shoulder. He squeezed it, softly calling the other’s name.
He watched Ruki squeeze his eyes, before slowly opening them and fix his gaze on Reita.
“Did I fell asleep here??” Ruki asked incredulous, his voice sleepy.
Reita chuckled at the other’s confused face: “Yup.. why didn’t you go inside?”
“Huh? Oh.. hum.. I was kinda in hurry, and.. well I forgot the keys” he explained, as he remembered the way he rushed out of his apartment and arrive there, breathless, fining no one at home.
“You’d call me, you know” Reita said gently.
“I.. I didn’t know what to say” Ruki muttered embarrassed, lowering his head.
“And now? Do you know what to say?” Reita asked quietly after few moments of silence.
“Yes” Ruki lift his head and replied firmly, staring the other’s eyes, his own full of determination.
Notes ♪:
I’m sorry if the first part, the one with Ruki’s thoughts, is a bit confusing. I wanted to describe his chaotic thoughts, so the “what a mess” aura was kinda wanted. Probably you feel confused just like him right now, but everything is going to be explained in the next chap u_u.
This chap was a bitch to write è_é and I’m not fully satisfied, but this had to be done *shrugs*.
Well, hope you liked ^____^
*waves*