everybody scream your heart out
"I hate it when things change..." He said, closing his eyes as he moved his hands back behind his head.
"Yeah, I know what you mean." I muttered, rolling to the side so I was on my back again. I wanted to look up at the stars. I couldn't help but wonder for a moment if everyone felt this way when they watched the stars. If everyone got this feeling of being so small, so vulnerable, but incredibly strong at the same time. I sighed, closing my eyes too. It was no use to start thinking about the purpose of life, why we even exist, all that jazz. I was going to enjoy the last night of summer the best way I knew, and that was spending it with Elliot.
He opened his eyes and turned to look at me again, smiling. "I don't want to be sad tonight. Let's not talk about that kind of stuff." I smirked at him, letting out another sigh of relief. "I was just thinking the same thing." I smiled back at him, and he reached his hand down to hold mine. He scooted closer to me and propped his head up with his arm so he could stare right at me. "Thank you for spending tonight with me..." Elliot whispered, his eyes moving down towards my chin. I think he was staring at my lips as I talked.
"Well, it's no problem, really. You were the one that risked getting caught by sneaking over here. I mean how many boys would climb the side of a house to lay on a roof with their neighbor?" I smiled at him, squeezing his hand gently. He moved his eyes back up to stare at me, nothing but seriousness in them now.
"You aren't just any neighbor, though, Jasey. You're my best friend and the person I would do anything for." He paused, biting his lip and averting his eyes as he thought, and I knew that something was on his mind. And when he moved his eyes back up, I could tell he had something he wanted to say but was nervous to say it. Gosh, he was so easy to read. His eyes told everything and always gave him away. I had to hold back a smile as I thought this, but it went away as he began speaking. "Jasey, I want to let you know that I love you. Even if it's just as friends right now, I love you. And I probably always will."
I could tell that he was holding his breath as he waited for me to answer, testing my reaction by my facial expression. Everything in my vision was going blurry and I tried to talk but my throat felt tight and clogged. I didn't know why I was reacting this way, but before I knew it tears were pouring down my face and I couldn't stop them. I wasn't even sad; why was I crying? "Oh god..." I mumbled, more embarassed than anything, and I covered my face with my hands. It probably made me look like I was totally offended or upset, which was the exact opposite of what I felt. And, just like I assumed would happen, I heard Elliot let out a strangled moan as he leaned in quickly and hugged me. "Oh Jasey, I didn't mean to make you cry! Gosh, I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have said anything-"
I pulled away and looked right at him, shaking my head as the tears kept pouring. "I'm not sad, Elliot. I swear." I wiped away the tears, smiling to prove it to him. "I don't know why I'm crying. Stupid emotions getting in the way." I laughed awkwardly, coughing slightly as I continued to cry for no reason.