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Today I leave for Chimney, summer #10.
What the fuck am I doing?
Andrew picked me up from the airport in Boston last night and drove me to old lyme. he held my hand as I tried to stay awake but the two days awake with only 4 hours of sleep was too much for me. Europe, or really just Spain, France and England, was nuts. I spent much of my time apologizing for the US. I met some crazy people, all of who spoke a minimum of two languages fluently, but most more. Europeans always make me feel guilty and insignificant. Regardless, Europe was good. It made me reflect a lot on my life, especially for my future. I also came to realize how much I love home. All of the people I met and the places I saw were nice, but they weren't places that I could see myself living.
I feel guilty that I am spending zero time with my family this summer. I had two weeks when I spent nearly every second with sally and it was amazing. Otherwise, I haven't really seen anyone for more than a day or two. I feel bad, my dad seemed really upset this morning when he said goodbye. I should be around more. ugh. I think i really really would be if my mom didn't make me feel like shit all the time. She is borrowing David (the bf)'s car to drive me up to chimney, isn't that so nice of him? fabulous.
What the fuck am I doing?
Andrew picked me up from the airport in Boston last night and drove me to old lyme. he held my hand as I tried to stay awake but the two days awake with only 4 hours of sleep was too much for me. Europe, or really just Spain, France and England, was nuts. I spent much of my time apologizing for the US. I met some crazy people, all of who spoke a minimum of two languages fluently, but most more. Europeans always make me feel guilty and insignificant. Regardless, Europe was good. It made me reflect a lot on my life, especially for my future. I also came to realize how much I love home. All of the people I met and the places I saw were nice, but they weren't places that I could see myself living.
I feel guilty that I am spending zero time with my family this summer. I had two weeks when I spent nearly every second with sally and it was amazing. Otherwise, I haven't really seen anyone for more than a day or two. I feel bad, my dad seemed really upset this morning when he said goodbye. I should be around more. ugh. I think i really really would be if my mom didn't make me feel like shit all the time. She is borrowing David (the bf)'s car to drive me up to chimney, isn't that so nice of him? fabulous.