holding on to something ben said
I guess I'll find out how mad Daddy is at me when he gets home tonight. I mean, I do understand that I really should've called, but I hope he'll really get where I'm coming from too.
I was lucky last night---no dreams. Just a phone call at five thirty that I needed to get.
I need to remember to take care of my ears or they'll get infected. >< I'm digging the new hole, though.
Last day of work (for a while) is tomorrow. Thank God. I need a break. I need to stop being incredibly fake for a while.
I found this funny:
I got an email from this girl in Ontario that is going to row for Miami. (Something tells me she was recruited, meaning she's getting money for this. TT. Lucky girl, that one.) Anyway, she was browsing facebook and saw that I have rowing as an activity, and she's trying to get me to come to the meeting. LoLo. In a way, it made me really happy to think that I might be able to compete at their level. Iunno. I may go to the meeting on the 24th and see what happens. Maybe I haven't quite sworn off competitive rowing. We'll see, neh?
I guess that also goes to show me that things never really turn out quite how you think they might. Resolve gets broken in favour of life.
I haven't cried since last night, so I'm doing all right for now.
I've got to make it through the week, and then I can go through all this again. I need strength. I need to have faith in the decision I made when I brought this to attention. I need to have faith that everything will turn out all right.
I will never ignore you. Never.
I was lucky last night---no dreams. Just a phone call at five thirty that I needed to get.
I need to remember to take care of my ears or they'll get infected. >< I'm digging the new hole, though.
Last day of work (for a while) is tomorrow. Thank God. I need a break. I need to stop being incredibly fake for a while.
I found this funny:
I got an email from this girl in Ontario that is going to row for Miami. (Something tells me she was recruited, meaning she's getting money for this. TT. Lucky girl, that one.) Anyway, she was browsing facebook and saw that I have rowing as an activity, and she's trying to get me to come to the meeting. LoLo. In a way, it made me really happy to think that I might be able to compete at their level. Iunno. I may go to the meeting on the 24th and see what happens. Maybe I haven't quite sworn off competitive rowing. We'll see, neh?
I guess that also goes to show me that things never really turn out quite how you think they might. Resolve gets broken in favour of life.
I haven't cried since last night, so I'm doing all right for now.
I've got to make it through the week, and then I can go through all this again. I need strength. I need to have faith in the decision I made when I brought this to attention. I need to have faith that everything will turn out all right.
I will never ignore you. Never.