Quartet

[lilywhitelilith]

Title: Quartet
Author: Telis (theaerosolkid)
Rating: G
Pairing: Panic! At the Disco
Summary: we_are_cities, multiple prompts; introspection.
Word Count: 3177
Disclaimer: Fake, fake, fake.

Comments

[heartscientist]

This is - man, this is - transcendent. It totally, wow, I mean, my brain is just, blown to pieces. Ryan's crisis of faith is completely realistic. The whole thing is just so delicately insightful, this reads kind of like you were an interviewer and this was all the stuff going on in Ryan's head as he answered your questions, feelings he could have answered with but didn't. Does that make sense?

Ryan meant what he said, in that one interview (it's funny how most of his life can be traced back to "that one interview", these days, or at least that's how it seems, perception is reality, but he's getting carried away as usual) that he believed his father allowed himself to die because he considered himself done with life, now that he had finished raising Ryan.

Just, oh, god. I don't think I've ever seen this angle explored, and it feels so TRUE.

Ryan isn't sure yet that he believes in God. He knows that he cannot believe in the God he was raised on, the God who plays with people and tests people for the sake of just doing it; the God who demands faith and gives sparingly in return.

YES, OH YES. This is just exactly how I feel (agnostic over here) but I couldn't have put it into words like that.

Ryan knows that there are limits to what you can forgive out of love, but the grace that is granted from love extends pretty damn far. Bitterness, anger, despair; these are things he learned at his father's knee. Sweetness, forgiveness, hope; these are things he learned at his father's grave.

Also, this socked me so hard in the gut I had to gasp for breath. This is just, this whole thing is amazing.

[theaerosolkid]

Wow, thanks! I really appreciate your feedback. I'm especially glad that the crisis of faith worked for you.

Thank you so much. :)