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Okay, I'm getting to the stage where I physically can't function. I can't get myself out of bed, I can't go to sleep, I lie down and I feel ill just from being down and resting instead of doing my work.
I had the 'flu last week which really isn't shaken off yet and I missed so much work. It's really a pathetic excuse and there's no one to blame but me, but still. I know other people have so much more to do than me, but honestly!
I've never been so damned stressed in my life. Welcome to effing university, first year semester 2. I have to work so hard to understand this chemistry course because I basically didn't take senior chemistry and it's a pre-requisite for this course (yet I got and A in highschool for it... and a high distinction in the National Chemistry Quiz.... am I good or bad at the bloody thing?!). I've missed about 6 lectures for that, although I almost enjoyed my prac yesterday (that's a big thing to say, trust me!).
That group of mine still hasn't responded, and the first piece is due in two days. One of them has dissappeared from the group list, and that majorly shits up the whole set-up of the four-person group assignment. I've sent a massive speil of an e-mail to the course co-ordinator and now I'm really tempted to just refresh my inbox until she replies, but I've got to keep working.
And I've still so much more to do. I missed my speech Toastmasters meeting last week because I was sick, and I'm probably not going to be able to go next week, so I HAVE to go this week - the thing only goes for 6 sessions and I've only been to 2/3 so far. So I have a speech to write as well. They're not that difficult - they basically encourage you to wing it, but still.
I haven't even started my HUGE report due on the 10th. I have an interview AND a mid-semester exam on the 1st. (The interview's for a scholarship - half my college fees off next year. I HAVE to impress them for that and get it, otherwise I'm in a Hell of a lot of hot water about living next year. $8,500 off is not something to be missed.) At least a few other things cleared up throughout last week, but there are just more and more things coming up.
I know I'll be fine and everything will work out. I just have some perverse enjoyment in observing the effects of all this on me. The effects of stress are really amazing - and so's the mind to be able to just do that to you.
I'm weird. :P
I had the 'flu last week which really isn't shaken off yet and I missed so much work. It's really a pathetic excuse and there's no one to blame but me, but still. I know other people have so much more to do than me, but honestly!
I've never been so damned stressed in my life. Welcome to effing university, first year semester 2. I have to work so hard to understand this chemistry course because I basically didn't take senior chemistry and it's a pre-requisite for this course (yet I got and A in highschool for it... and a high distinction in the National Chemistry Quiz.... am I good or bad at the bloody thing?!). I've missed about 6 lectures for that, although I almost enjoyed my prac yesterday (that's a big thing to say, trust me!).
That group of mine still hasn't responded, and the first piece is due in two days. One of them has dissappeared from the group list, and that majorly shits up the whole set-up of the four-person group assignment. I've sent a massive speil of an e-mail to the course co-ordinator and now I'm really tempted to just refresh my inbox until she replies, but I've got to keep working.
And I've still so much more to do. I missed my speech Toastmasters meeting last week because I was sick, and I'm probably not going to be able to go next week, so I HAVE to go this week - the thing only goes for 6 sessions and I've only been to 2/3 so far. So I have a speech to write as well. They're not that difficult - they basically encourage you to wing it, but still.
I haven't even started my HUGE report due on the 10th. I have an interview AND a mid-semester exam on the 1st. (The interview's for a scholarship - half my college fees off next year. I HAVE to impress them for that and get it, otherwise I'm in a Hell of a lot of hot water about living next year. $8,500 off is not something to be missed.) At least a few other things cleared up throughout last week, but there are just more and more things coming up.
I know I'll be fine and everything will work out. I just have some perverse enjoyment in observing the effects of all this on me. The effects of stress are really amazing - and so's the mind to be able to just do that to you.
I'm weird. :P