I have come so very far since last year.
Last year, around this time, it was a struggle to get out of bed in the morning, and it got to the point that I just couldn't bring myself to. I couldn't look at myself in the mirror. I was mean and bitter to everyone around me. I shut myself up in my room, and hardly came out. I was hurting so bad. It was hard to even breathe. I was just a pitiful shell of a person. I never smiled for real, you know, actually, smiled.
And then, gradually, things got better.
In April, my amazing little turtle, Lily, came into my life on a sunny Sunday afternoon. My brother found her at the park, and brought her home, begged my mom if we could keep her, and gradually, she snuck her way into our daily life and our hearts. Especially mine. She is my baby, and she makes me so happy. Just her cute little face, and her sweet little cuddles. She is really what helped me get better.
Then came Oscar, in August. When we first got him, his old owner hadn't taken care of him so he was in really bad shape. He was shy, he smelled bad, and he wasn't very pretty. My sister and I bathed him several times a day, and we used soap every other day. We trimmed his nails, and scrubbed all the dirt and grime off him. We loved him, we talked to him, we held him, and now, he is such a friendly, active turtle. He does little tricks, and he'll give you a kiss if you ask for one, and he loves to run. Seeing how far he has come since we got him really warms my heart.
Today, I feel beautiful. I can look myself in the mirror, and think to myself, "I am beautiful." I'm much more friendly, and I smile all the time. I love meeting new people, and talking to people. It's not a struggle to get out of bed and get on with my day. To be free of feeling yucky inside, it's so good. It feels, just.. Amazing.
I just wanted to share that.
And, I want to say, to anybody who currently feels like I did last year, I am here for you. And you can get out of how you're feeling. It's not forever, even though it feels like it.
Much love
-Beth
And then, gradually, things got better.
In April, my amazing little turtle, Lily, came into my life on a sunny Sunday afternoon. My brother found her at the park, and brought her home, begged my mom if we could keep her, and gradually, she snuck her way into our daily life and our hearts. Especially mine. She is my baby, and she makes me so happy. Just her cute little face, and her sweet little cuddles. She is really what helped me get better.
Then came Oscar, in August. When we first got him, his old owner hadn't taken care of him so he was in really bad shape. He was shy, he smelled bad, and he wasn't very pretty. My sister and I bathed him several times a day, and we used soap every other day. We trimmed his nails, and scrubbed all the dirt and grime off him. We loved him, we talked to him, we held him, and now, he is such a friendly, active turtle. He does little tricks, and he'll give you a kiss if you ask for one, and he loves to run. Seeing how far he has come since we got him really warms my heart.
Today, I feel beautiful. I can look myself in the mirror, and think to myself, "I am beautiful." I'm much more friendly, and I smile all the time. I love meeting new people, and talking to people. It's not a struggle to get out of bed and get on with my day. To be free of feeling yucky inside, it's so good. It feels, just.. Amazing.
I just wanted to share that.
And, I want to say, to anybody who currently feels like I did last year, I am here for you. And you can get out of how you're feeling. It's not forever, even though it feels like it.
Much love
-Beth