Poems for my cat
I had promised myself that I would post these here... so here goes.
"Boo" 3/7/03
My warmth
My comfort
My companion
You were all these things
I just wish I didn't have to let you go
It was the best for you
I hope you understand
You loved me more than anything could
I loved you that much and more
I hope you knew that
I know you knew that
In my darkest hours
You were always there
I hope I did right by you
By letting you go
I wish you could come back
Just one last day
One last night
So I can hold you
Just one last time
"My Angel" 3/08/03 (Early Morning)
A wound that won't heal
A space that won't fill
A place I've never been
A hurt I've never felt
This lump in my chest
This pain in my throat
It can never be expressed
This pain I can feel
I hurt all over
I can't get it out
I want to scream
But, the words won't come out
I know you're inside me
But, I just want to see
Your beautiful spirit
That's now inside of me
I have no home
I have no way
There is no where without you
That I can be me
I hope you are running
And happy and free
Chasing the insects
And climbing the trees
Chasing the birds
And living more than I ever saw you be
But, without you there's an ache
An ache in my chest
No way out
I hope you understand
The decision I made
To let you be free
From the hurt and the pain
To let you cross
That bridge all alone
Without my help
For the first time on your own
I know somewhere in my heart
That you're in the best place
With green grass and lakes
I hope that you know that I did all I could
To make you feel loved
Sheltered and safe
Please don't forget me
Or ever leave my heart
I'll think of you always
In your new home
With your insects and your birds
And all the great lakes
Please know I loved you, more than my heart could ever replace
I wrote the first one right after I returned from the animal hospital where she died. I wrote the second later that night. I've since written 2 more, but they are still "scratched" out on paper that I found laying around in someone's house and they are very strange. The night that her ashes were delivered, we had a memorial service for her in our home. I read both of these poems for her then. May sound crazy if anyone actually reads my journal, but this was a special animal that I spent 10 years with almost every single day. I loved her and still love her very much.
"Boo" 3/7/03
My warmth
My comfort
My companion
You were all these things
I just wish I didn't have to let you go
It was the best for you
I hope you understand
You loved me more than anything could
I loved you that much and more
I hope you knew that
I know you knew that
In my darkest hours
You were always there
I hope I did right by you
By letting you go
I wish you could come back
Just one last day
One last night
So I can hold you
Just one last time
"My Angel" 3/08/03 (Early Morning)
A wound that won't heal
A space that won't fill
A place I've never been
A hurt I've never felt
This lump in my chest
This pain in my throat
It can never be expressed
This pain I can feel
I hurt all over
I can't get it out
I want to scream
But, the words won't come out
I know you're inside me
But, I just want to see
Your beautiful spirit
That's now inside of me
I have no home
I have no way
There is no where without you
That I can be me
I hope you are running
And happy and free
Chasing the insects
And climbing the trees
Chasing the birds
And living more than I ever saw you be
But, without you there's an ache
An ache in my chest
No way out
I hope you understand
The decision I made
To let you be free
From the hurt and the pain
To let you cross
That bridge all alone
Without my help
For the first time on your own
I know somewhere in my heart
That you're in the best place
With green grass and lakes
I hope that you know that I did all I could
To make you feel loved
Sheltered and safe
Please don't forget me
Or ever leave my heart
I'll think of you always
In your new home
With your insects and your birds
And all the great lakes
Please know I loved you, more than my heart could ever replace
I wrote the first one right after I returned from the animal hospital where she died. I wrote the second later that night. I've since written 2 more, but they are still "scratched" out on paper that I found laying around in someone's house and they are very strange. The night that her ashes were delivered, we had a memorial service for her in our home. I read both of these poems for her then. May sound crazy if anyone actually reads my journal, but this was a special animal that I spent 10 years with almost every single day. I loved her and still love her very much.