today i went walking
today i walked like i was busy. too caught-up to look at people in the eyes, too distracted to notice i had bumped in to people. and i felt
crowded, my heart beating fast
today i walked like like a child. hugging people, smiling, playing games. i felt simple, happy, and my heart beat fast.
today i walked like a woman. arms crossed, scared of my surroundings, avoiding eye contact, ashamed. i felt criticized, critiqued, judged,
and i retreated in to my shell.
today i walked like a man. my head high, shoulders back, proud, high fives. i picked up flowers and discarded them, and looked at my fellow
men and women-men as equals. i felt strange and tall.
today i walked small. the voices in my head told me i was not good enough, not smart enough, not exciting enough. i wanted to cry, and
stood by myself, looking down. down at the grass, and i felt crushed.
today i walked with nature. i looked at my friends in my group, walking around in the crooked circle, awed, amazed, humbled. and
then it started to rain, with my hands holding on to the energy of the earth, feeling its below me. and i felt it all.
today i sat under mother nature's canopy tree, with her feeling rain showering down around. i felt a friends hand, a friend i couldn't see.
i felt knuckles, and the things she has picked up. i felt her fingertips, and the things she has made. i felt her palms, and the lotion
she has rubbed on them. i felt her feelings, the life in her hands, and the soul attached to it. and then she felt my hand. i wonder
what she felt.
today i had my eco-feminism discussion. and today i felt loved. sad. vibrant. dull. proud. self-conscious. giddy. heavy. distant. alive.
today i felt everything.
crowded, my heart beating fast
today i walked like like a child. hugging people, smiling, playing games. i felt simple, happy, and my heart beat fast.
today i walked like a woman. arms crossed, scared of my surroundings, avoiding eye contact, ashamed. i felt criticized, critiqued, judged,
and i retreated in to my shell.
today i walked like a man. my head high, shoulders back, proud, high fives. i picked up flowers and discarded them, and looked at my fellow
men and women-men as equals. i felt strange and tall.
today i walked small. the voices in my head told me i was not good enough, not smart enough, not exciting enough. i wanted to cry, and
stood by myself, looking down. down at the grass, and i felt crushed.
today i walked with nature. i looked at my friends in my group, walking around in the crooked circle, awed, amazed, humbled. and
then it started to rain, with my hands holding on to the energy of the earth, feeling its below me. and i felt it all.
today i sat under mother nature's canopy tree, with her feeling rain showering down around. i felt a friends hand, a friend i couldn't see.
i felt knuckles, and the things she has picked up. i felt her fingertips, and the things she has made. i felt her palms, and the lotion
she has rubbed on them. i felt her feelings, the life in her hands, and the soul attached to it. and then she felt my hand. i wonder
what she felt.
today i had my eco-feminism discussion. and today i felt loved. sad. vibrant. dull. proud. self-conscious. giddy. heavy. distant. alive.
today i felt everything.