graduating

Apr 30, 2007 12:57

it's the final countdown (i realize those are lyrics to an 80s song but they fit so well)

Counting down the days until graduation which unlike a lot of people I'm dreading. Just like high school, I'm not quite ready to move on. I mean yes, I am, I'm excited to do new things and meet new people and all that but I'm not ready to give up all the great things here, all the fantastic friends and experiences.
Part of me thinks its worse because i'm staying for the summer and it won't be like I've moved on yet. It might not feel real, it'll just feel like a regular summer.

And I'm stressing about my financial life, I know every college student is and I am grateful for the fellowship and all, but I do still have to pay tuition so it's not as fantastic as it first seemed although still awesome. It just means i'll have to take out a loan to pay for tuition for at least the first semester. I'll have extra money each month which I can either save for tuition or I can use to pay off my massive ($12,000) in credit card debt. Yeah its that bad. I could use either winning the lottery or donating my eggs right about now.

Countdown
19 days until Graduation
10 more classes
4 final exams
lots of work, lots of hours at CHC because I'll still be doing these things until August.

I guess this isn't the final countdown because I'll do another one before I leave Pennsylvania in August but it feels like the end and I'm depressed. I can see it now, another 4 hour graduation ceremony to cry through. I don't even think I have friends to sit next to.
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