"Do I Look Like a Slut?"
So we played 10 fingers (or "Never Have I Ever") game today in my suite. i lost (meaning all my fingers were down) in like 3 minutes. I felt really dirty and the way everyone looked at me made me feel like a slut, but it wasn't like i was hoeing about with lots of guys. i've only had 2 sexual partners, and a experience with a girl. all of the people i've done anything with i've loved very very much. i just felt really bad. the other thing i felt bad about was hanging up with melbs..that made me feel bad. i mean i dunno. i felt weird. and i sort of had a little weird spat with julia and that really upset me. i'm super emotional, and i want to cry. i don't know. i think i should have some pot brownie to calm down. and listen to music. i think i'm going to do that. fuck the don't use substances alone. i don't feel well.