There isn't much anyone can do about things. Not now, at least. I could never do a thing about everything that happened in my life, even if I saw it coming from ten miles away. I'm not sitting, worrying about it, playing the 'What if?' game... You shouldn't, either.
Shit happens, and it just happened to play out like shit. For all parties involved. We all make mistakes, *ahem*, but that's only because we choose to. I learned that recently.
On the other hand, however, we only live because we make mistakes, because we choose to. And if we stop trying things, stop doing things, just sit still to avoid mistakes, that in itself will turn out to be the biggest mistake and regret of our lives. All of us.
Nothing's set in stone, yet. Things can still happen, come together, what have you. Of course, in order for that to happen, things have to crack and break first. You know that.
At this point, no matter who you choose, because I'm sure both are willing, in one sence of the word or another, you will get hurt. No matter what, you will make some sort of mistake, from some point of view. But if you were sit and wait, and do nothing, like mentioned before, it may turn out to be a big mistake.
Neither of them will wait around forever. Well, at least one won't. Didn't.
Of course, that wasn't your fault at all. From what I gather, he was 'in trouble', 'temporarily insane', 'paranoid'. He dealt with things in a bad way; a fun way, but a bad one, nonetheless. He claims to not regret it, but at the same time, he claims he's perfectly alright, and that he did what he could to keep himself together. He was never exactly what could have been called a stable man, or even a logical man, depending on your stance. He pushed himself too far, you had nothing to do with it.
But, that's a lie. He was confused, scared, bewildered... Call it what you will. The last thing he wanted to see in the world was more trouble and worry. He'd seen all the terrible things he'd constructed and utilized, and he himself felt he was not worthy of whta he had. He didn't decide to throw it all away, and that was the last thing he wanted to do. However, in a state of dillusion, fear, being worried about and questioned is not fun. At all.
You can't be blamed. You won't be. He takes all responsability, and accepts what's happened. To change it all on a whim would be nice, but only nice. What it is? Impossible, outrageous, foolish, etc.
He won't try it.
He seems happy that he's still an apparent large portion of your life, but he seems to hate it at the same time. If he couldn't hande things before, he won't be able to handle things like this.
He doesn't want to put things on you? Oh, he doesn't want to be a hypocrite, which exactly what he's doing. I get it.
He's just going to 'remove himself' from you, for the good of everyone. Absolutely everyone.
Shit happens, and it just happened to play out like shit. For all parties involved. We all make mistakes, *ahem*, but that's only because we choose to. I learned that recently.
On the other hand, however, we only live because we make mistakes, because we choose to. And if we stop trying things, stop doing things, just sit still to avoid mistakes, that in itself will turn out to be the biggest mistake and regret of our lives. All of us.
Nothing's set in stone, yet. Things can still happen, come together, what have you. Of course, in order for that to happen, things have to crack and break first. You know that.
At this point, no matter who you choose, because I'm sure both are willing, in one sence of the word or another, you will get hurt. No matter what, you will make some sort of mistake, from some point of view. But if you were sit and wait, and do nothing, like mentioned before, it may turn out to be a big mistake.
Neither of them will wait around forever. Well, at least one won't. Didn't.
Of course, that wasn't your fault at all. From what I gather, he was 'in trouble', 'temporarily insane', 'paranoid'. He dealt with things in a bad way; a fun way, but a bad one, nonetheless. He claims to not regret it, but at the same time, he claims he's perfectly alright, and that he did what he could to keep himself together. He was never exactly what could have been called a stable man, or even a logical man, depending on your stance. He pushed himself too far, you had nothing to do with it.
But, that's a lie. He was confused, scared, bewildered... Call it what you will. The last thing he wanted to see in the world was more trouble and worry. He'd seen all the terrible things he'd constructed and utilized, and he himself felt he was not worthy of whta he had. He didn't decide to throw it all away, and that was the last thing he wanted to do. However, in a state of dillusion, fear, being worried about and questioned is not fun. At all.
You can't be blamed. You won't be. He takes all responsability, and accepts what's happened. To change it all on a whim would be nice, but only nice. What it is? Impossible, outrageous, foolish, etc.
He won't try it.
He seems happy that he's still an apparent large portion of your life, but he seems to hate it at the same time. If he couldn't hande things before, he won't be able to handle things like this.
He doesn't want to put things on you? Oh, he doesn't want to be a hypocrite, which exactly what he's doing. I get it.
He's just going to 'remove himself' from you, for the good of everyone. Absolutely everyone.
Well, good luck, for whenever you need it.
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